three cheers for sweet revenge.

2006-01-16T05:55:00.000+08:00

well i just had a long, cold shower. so refreshing. its almost been a month since my last post. and how things have changed. of goes 2005. and in came 2006. here are some details.

first up. i'm now 18! actually im 18 and a few weeks old. but who cares. i am now, as many of u put it, legal. nothing to celebrate though. wait till 21. CRAZY HORSE YO!

xmas came and left. so very fast. cant say it was enjoyable. to be honest it realli sucked. doh!

im single again. swinging single. only my fats are swinging actually. oh wells, perhaps its time to move one. to find a brand new hero. all i can say is wat will be will be. the future not ours to see. que sera sera. saddening. nice song tho.

then new year came and left too. ushered in the new year with some dota. and supper. lovely :) yet another day which was meant to be special. yet ended up in disappointment.

10 days into the new year. and i found a job. actually benny found me a job. and i love it :) basically sitting there for 8 hours a day doing nothing. just some recording stuff and then slacking the day away. work from 5pm to 1am daily. and time passes so slowly. kinda reminds me of BK. such good memories. and bad ones too =/ anyway made quite a few friends. i shall list them all wahahaha.

Lyndon - my agent. good salesman. great guy.
Ben - the other redemption guy. jiao wei god. simply crazy!
Gary - promoter. nice guy to talk to. super friendly. wat a pity that today is his last day. good luck to him in his new job.
Daniel - he keeps saying i owe him tandoori chicken. i dunnoe why. nice guy tho.
Jeremy - i owe him ice milo. cause liverpool won -.- another great guy.
Lovell - i thought he was some CHIOBU when i heard his name. turned out to be a guy =/ but he is nice. and he plays DOTA!
Ying Zhu - closes 3 sales in 30 mins. wigan fan. lol. he hates dota =|
and last but not least the super quiet girl who has only worked one day so far. i dun even noe her name cause she is like so shy.

and thats a summary of my colleagues at the CANON roadshow near mustafa centre. any of u interested in getting cameras please drop by. u can just drop by to see me too. its near new park hotel and the royal india hotel where the room rate is only $15 for transit. ben is a daily customer there.

next. im currently sunburnt. all thanks to peck and the super hot sun which came out 2 days ago. damn its so painful! argh. oh and peck and his gf are happy together. im so glad that he has finally found a nice girl. even tho she has 24 ex-bf -.-. yisiew also got bf alr. dats good. may both couples last long and live many many blissfull days.

and there is some other things which i shall not say. 2006 so far has been ok i guess. some things have changed. but some things havent. well i dunnoe wats in store for me this year. but i hope it better be good.

to all my friends. its been a long time since we met up. mon ch bells and the rest. shall MJ soon! pecky. chinese garden next week? <3 cameltoe LOL. keong jun benny and the above mentioned. when are we cruising to thailand? and seafood in JB soon man. to lynn. i got a job too u dumbass. where is my swensens, chocolate, ice cream and wat else?! and finally to janice. if the 2 of us dant decide. then fate will decide it for us. <3 ya.

till then.
roddy signing off with <3 many many. :)

2005-12-20T17:38:00.000+08:00

im back im back. bangkok was er boring. basically shopping shopping and more shaopping. but nothing much to buy. and not much to spend. cause all went to the darling! then the rest of the time was stuffing myself with food at the hotel restaurant or waching espn in the room. yes yes ESPN! didnt think i could still watch soccer over there. oh well man u won yay!

anyway its great to be able to see my darling again after 10 long days. missed her lots. im sure she is happy with the presents i got her. MAYBE NOT! stupid darling.

its already the 20th. just 3 days more. but im not eagerly anticipating it. i dunnoe why. its gonna be just a normal day. spent at home slacking. then simple dinner. and what not. i wanna lead a simple life. just like paris hilton. wooohoo!

not much left to say. just end off with song my dad used to sing to me when i slept last time. I dont wanna talk about it by Rod Stewart. so nice!

I can tell by your eyes that you've prob'bly been cryin' forever,
and the stars in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
If I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?

If I stand all alone, will the shadow hide the color of my heart;
blue for the tears, black for the night's fears.
The star in the sky don't mean nothin' to you, they're a mirror.
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke my heart.
If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
I don't want to talk about it, how you broke this ol' heart.

If I stay here just a little bit longer,
if I stay here, won't you listen to my heart, whoa, heart?
My heart, whoa, heart.

2005-12-04T22:36:00.000+08:00

i want nokia 6111! so cool. anyone wanna buy it for me? guess not. actually i dont really need a camera phone. no pictures to take. but but but this phone is cool i want it!! so i will buy it. somehow. z!

its december. like finally? is is something worth waiting for now? mmm. i dont know.

will be leaving for bangkok on the 13th. hope it will be fun. i wanna buy t-shirts, t-shirts, and more t-shirts. cause im running of them. i never had many anyway =/ hope i can shop till i drop. or maybe i can just drop dead :)

lotsa occasions coming. xmas and the shit. its time to celebrate. as well as spend money on gifts. but we shall see. oh wells. maybe. maybe not.

might start working at asteroids soon. hope i do get the job. finally yes FINALLY! then i can pay my debts. and move on in life? next chapter perhaps?

it seems that with good things come bad things. why is there not one day in my life whereby i enjoy the whole damn day. there always has to be a bad patch somewhere. a crack in a beautiful picture. double u tee eff? sigh sigh sigh. 2005 hurry and eff off. may 2006 be a better year. till then....

oh yeah singapore gymnastics won gold. grats man. lee wen si looks uber 1337. gary tan is a lucky bastard. just had to say that. sighs good byee.

2005-11-26T11:47:00.000+08:00

im going crazy. nuts. insane. mad. bonkers. whatever! omg omg omg. im so paranoid. why? i cant sleep. fugg. mon said dat a person is most aware of his feelings when he wakes up in the morning. the problem is i wake up at night wtf. so many things happening at the same time i cant cope. the world is so unfair i tell u. so damn bloody unfair! wtf is going on somebody slap me awake. roddy.is.going.crazy!

2005-11-12T23:38:00.000+08:00

I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

hmmmmm The Reason by Hoobastank. nice song really. wanted to bold the parts which contained my message to my baby. but i guess. its just the whole song. darling im so so sorry. love ya!

Swimming tml at CHINESE GARDENS! 4GG + Ryan Ng. lazy river here i come. muahahaha! might be meeting darling in the evening. hopefully. unless my dad forces me to go to my uncles house. see how.

oh well i shall go DOTA and then DOD then maybe sleep! ciaos.

2005-11-12T03:07:00.000+08:00

Yay! New skin. Oh well. Its so plain. Just like me. Plain lil dud!

Sometimes i wonder. Why havent i got any pet names? Cute ones maybe. Ahh well. I can be called little cb! Hehe :)

Been playing lots of DOTA and ROC these days. Still noob la. Forever noob man :D I'm so free. Please date me out anyone. Anything will do. Movie. Lunch. Dinner. Slack. Whatever just call me!

And I just can’t look its killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Swimming through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

Thats Mr Brightside by The Killers. So nice right? Love it!

Well to my darling, I hope u get over it soon. If I can forgive and forget. I dont see why u can't. Love ya.

2005-11-01T00:43:00.000+08:00

hello! today passed so quickly. darling came over in the morning to slack. slacked and slacked. then i went to sleep at 3. so tired. darling said she wantedd to watch mtv. so out she went while slept. woke up at 5. and i foundd my poor little darlin sleeping on the sofa. carried her like my princess to the bed. then she woke up and said she wanna watch mtv again -.- so i went back to sleep haha. woke up at 7 to break fast. ate. then started to doze off. before darling said she wanted to go out.

so we went to central. so boring! nth to do. shop all closed. sat at ljs for a while then decided to walk to her house. walking halfway when it started drizzling. at the same time my ass wanted to explode. so i went to SHIT at mobil. decided to take the bus home. and the day was over. so fast! darling went to sleep already. she's going out with bells tml. poor bells. she is so lonely and bored cause mon is in sweden. haha. a few more days bel! u can call me and jan anytime :)

so bored. i feel like sleeping already. tired tired. i still need a job. well it can be full time now. i want money! before the darling starts complaining. bleahs.

jay chou new song is nice :)

so is helena by my chemical romance.

long ago.
just like a hearse u died to get in again.
we are.
so far from you!

i miss my darling already. loves many many! :D

good night people!

2005-10-27T10:46:00.000+08:00

hey ppl. ive not blogged in years. not one or two. millions of years! oh well. the blog died-ed =/

hmmmmmmmmmmms where shall i start? ok. er. hmmmm. lets see. been DYING AT HOME WITH NOTHING TO DO recently. yeah no job. no school. no money. no nothing. yes ive been removed from Temasek Polytechnic. its over. goodbye mecha. i wish u well. rot in hell :) friends in dearest M409. will miss ya all many many! come to me for soccer tips i'll always be willing to help lol.

monster is flying to sweden later on. lucky bastard. he appeared in singtel advert. so cool. no resemblance to the normal him lor. anyway he will be bootcamping at inferno online. he gets to meet SK and the shit yo! well good luck to him both in sweden and at WCG in november man. do SG proud. poor bells gonna be so so lonely this nx 2 weeks. poor thing.

hmmm. mother got herself a new job. at delifrance. as dunnoe wat la. she'll be working closely with the production of the products. she can poison the food anytime =/ haha. well anyway she is trialling at the delifrance outlet near SMU there. dunnoe called wat. and she told me. that there is this manager which resembles Grace in a few ways. sighs. its been one year plus now almost 2. well i can still imagine the way she looks sometimes. being one of the managers i was close to at that time, it realli was a blow. sadly for her :( still rmb the day after where me and mother went to Liat Towers to pass em the money. argh. and then. the cremation. i cried. i dunnoe why. but i did. it was so sad. oh wells. she will always remain a memory.

i wanna DOTA DOTA DOTA! my GFX spoiled. mon gonna lend me his old one. then hopefully i can DOTA DOTA DOTA! lol. dun haf to go ch hse or wat. les has to faster finish his A's then we can chiong asteroids all together man! oh well. the things u can do in this world. all u need is money. money makes the world go round. im sure my darling will welcome the extra money i can spend on her. haha! stupid girl is so busy working that she has no time for me!! nvm. still love her many many tho.

all right. its time to go. i got nothing to do. dun wanna sleep. sleep = boring. shall go play some games. or just go browse friendster and look for who i wanna meet HAHAHAHA PPG!

CIAOS. <3 all!

2005-10-07T12:30:00.000+08:00

im back! from a very short but enjoyable chalet. actually i was back yesterday. but doesnt matter much anyway lol. it was mj mj mj and more mj. and thanks CC for doing all the drinking for me. lol. so fun. dice games. truth or dare. all just so fun. but wasnt the chalet a lil too short? hmmm. the food was a problem. except for the BBQ nite. so much to eat. so filling. yum! but watever i enjoyed it all. the times with my darling and friends. been a close bunch since sec sch. 4GG's. 4CB peeps. mofos like brandon lau ziyang were there. i wont share my gf with u! lol.
well its been a great 3 days for me.

spent almost the whole of ytd sleeping. not enuff sleep at chalet man! darling came over to my house after check out and we slept all day. im so bored at home. im fasting now. and life is just so BORING. can money just drop from the sky please! mtv is on rite now while im on the com. argh i swear im gonna die of boredom.

well gonna browse the net for the next few hrs before i break fast? hmmm. i still havent got a job. hope my aunt's company has one for me. cause i badly need it!

kristin kreuk is hot! so is REON KADENA :P and also my darling :):):)

2005-09-28T08:43:00.000+08:00

ive changed my blogskin again. isnt it just so cute? UH-HUH THIS MY SHIT! k i better stop before belinda hits me.

well well. updates. hmmmmmm!

first up. i lost my handphone. about 2 weeks ago. uh huh. and its becoming increasingly difficult for people to contact me. not that it actually mattered. but. oh well. shld be getting a new SIM card soooooon! hopefully :)

secondly. supp papers is coming up. suddenly the chalet became something to not look forward to. sigh. yes. my homies are organising a chalet. ne one wanna go? it will be a fun filled time where u can make children u wont know of :) dat line was from russell peters. anyone wanna tak sang bong? k back to the supp papers. 6 papers. so loser rite. sigh. surprisingly i managed to pass JAVA. haha eat my shit people. I PASSED JAVA! so dats one less paper. sometimes i wonder why do i even bother to go for the supps. i mean. i've planned for the future. only thing left to do is just break it to my parents. and i dunnoe how to =// so i have to take the supps. and just pass as many as i can. so good luck to me.

thirdly. i badly need a job. anyone can find me one? im running bad debts. soon people will be after my life. not forgetting the money. so please. I NEEED A JOB BAD!

and finally. just for my darling. its been hard on the both of us. u cant say its always ur fault. it takes 2 hands to clap. it wouldnt have been your fault had i not contributed to it in the first place. well we've taken a timeout till the weekends. maybe its for the better. both of us. cool down. reflect on wat has happened. however i feel that if we realli do love each other. timeouts are not needed. anything can be solved anytime anywhere. well its just my two cents. i miss you too. just hope it'll be over soon. i wanna see the smile back on your face this coming weekend. or maybe even earlier. i love u.

oh yeah. my parents just left for work. before they left, i told my mum i had an ulcer. first she said heaty. then she said must be i kissed alot of girls! mother i havent kissed MY ONLY GIRL in 2 days. so please stop rubbing it in.

ok people. dats it for now. thanks for coming. hope u enjoyed this. till then. goodbye.

suddenly i feel like a newscaster -.-

2005-09-24T18:28:00.000+08:00

im just being honest here. im not trying to be petty. but i seriously hate that stupid cafe and dont like the fact that u work there. nothing else to say goodbye people.

2005-09-12T04:41:00.000+08:00

heh. YO! just finished watching initial d. dl-ed it ytd. onli second time im watching it. one word. SUD! the love story was sad too. climaxed when jay cried. hahaha. a grown man crying. which reminds me of. oh well lets just say haha :) i look at u and spit all over ur face :)

woke up at ard 1 today and then went over to suntec to watch mon play wcg finals. he won and will now represent sg in the global finals. good job to him and the rest of titans man. he took home some cool prizes and $1k. time for some international buffet dude. lol. then went to asteroids with peck benny and keong. dinner then slacked around near peck's house. met ch and then keong again for supper at simei. watched soccer too. boring match i shld say. then came home and watched the movie. it took me 4 hours to finish it. cause i kept pausing and chatting and what not. haha. and so i just finished.

darling is gonna go for her ben and jerry interview tml. darling goooooood luck k. u sure can make it. lets work hard. u for ur fees and all dat. and me for money for u to spend :) i dont mind. realli =D please remember the daily complimentary ice cream for me when u start work. haha.

all rite its time to sleep. but before dat. i need to do something. which onli my darling knows off :P goodbye people!

2005-09-07T21:28:00.000+08:00

hello people. welcome to a blog :) nice pic eh. I KNEW IT. anyway i think i got appendicitis =/ gosh cry pls kkthxbbye. appendicitis is when ur appendix blah blah blah blah. hmmmmmmm. dats all i know. yes i'm shallow =/

oh wells. some people are just too dramatic. MAKES THE DAMN HAIR STAND U NOE. gosh ffs act like ur age pls dun come drama-mama here and there. zz. ok peace out people. rmb to comment on my pic. kthx! ciaos.

2005-09-04T19:33:00.000+08:00

GUESS WHO'S BACK! dunnoe. like wat darling says. I DUNNOE! oh wells. my com is back on track. the old one. sth wrong with the new one. the graphic card i believe. so i formatted the old one and here i am using it. tho its a lil slow. its better than nothing. havent been able to go online for a few days now. soooo sad. and i've quitted LOD. finally. it took too much time off my life =/

just came back from my aunts house not long ago. slacked there. mum cooked curry. soooooo nice. the darling is out with her mum having dinner. i miss her :P didnt see her for long yesterday. cause it was her jie's bdae and she went out till late at night. mean. didnt she know i missed her. haha.

hmmmmmmmm. seeeeeems like theres nothing much to say. exams this week. ive been debarred from a few papers =/ well looks like i might be serving the nation very soon :( lets just let nature take its course. for those having their papers this weeeeek. good luck guys. remember to treat me when ur results are out. be it good or bad :P

2005-08-06T04:16:00.000+08:00

HELLO HELLO! here i am. once again. i shall not continue. well i cant sleep. havent blogged in a long time. very long time. well the past few days. hmmmm. the usual stuff. lod. just chilling. and. READING THE DA VINCI CODE. something i wanted to do for a very long time now. finally. still noli at chapter 88. yes yes im a slow reader so shoot me. anyway lod ladder is reseting. dat sucks. its like when fl went p2p. thus im downloading a new game to play =P football manager 2005. join me people.

well well. my eldest cousin. flew off to qatar 2 days ago. she went there to work. as a flight stewardess for emirates. dats a great achievement. truly shows her potential. we were sending her off. and i overheard her talking to her friend. her friend made a comment of how far she has gone since she started out. first a groud crew with malaysia airlines. thena flight stewardess with a budget airline. jetstar asia i believe. then now. emirates. world class airline. SIA soon? well noli she noes the answer to that. i believe she is fine and safe in qatar rite now. so kak ain. u probably wont see this. but if u do. i wish u all the best in your future endeavours. and dont worry. my wedding will be held after yours. not the 3 years which i mentioned. haha.

well this just goes to show. that as long as u are ambitious and dont give up. u can get to wherever u want. i guess since i said that i shld be on the right track in my life. but i dont think so. i dont have an ambition =/ and i give up easily. so contrasting to my cousin. well i hope. i can just knock some sense into my own head. and just work hard. be successful in future. i want to provide my family well. just live a good life. and yes i noe if i want that i'll have to start now. so wake up roddy. WAKE UP!

its 4.30 am. i cant sleep. just dont know why. jan and friends coming over later i believe. so i'll probably just finish reading the book. just 16 chapters to go. finish it and maybe start my managerial career yay!

nth else to say now. shoutouts go to the peeps who come to my blog often. if there is any =/ jan darling. i love u ok. lets have more off days from our quarrels. rena from ed4a miss the old ed4a times man. and to everyone. thanks for coming into my life in watever way possible. oh yah happy bdae to lynnie too. go chiong and ogle more. haha. take care people cyaaaaaaa ^^

2005-07-10T05:21:00.000+08:00

sup people. im back. from hell. i met diablo there. and his his brothers mephisto and baal. andariel was there too.

for those who think wtf am i talking abt. www.blizzard.com/diablo2exp. hahahaha.

im back baby! dats cause. im experiencing realm down. which is so f up. cause i want to play laaa. c-bong. well well lets see. term tests are over. ill be glad to pass them. or maybe just 2 of them. we shall see huh. next week is term break. full time lod? nah. i have a girlfriend! and she needs me. rite darling? haha.

i've been thinking. everyone is moving to greater heights. ch is president of tpge. mon biz ambassador. represent sg in gaming. actually as im typing now he is in the usa playing in cpl. HE WON 300 F-ING BUCKS. they are all so successful. wat about me. mechatronics year 1.2. enuff said. sigh sigh. when is it my turn to be successful. 18 years. and i cant think of a great achievement. perhaps psle? aggregate 228? well it certainly has been overshadowed by my sister's 241. so i guess its not great anymore. which comes out to no great personal achievements by me. super sad case. well well. we shall see in future. whether i sweep the roads. or work in WALL STREET. non-dreamers fail. dreamers simply sleep too much.

well hope my lod works now. cya ppl. shall update again soon. GOOOODBYE!

2005-07-04T02:40:00.000+08:00

hi ppl.

i'm slping now.

i did not call my darling.

i'm an idiot.

i deserved to be slapped by my darling when i see her tmr.

just joking.

my blog got invaded.

by

mrs hubbs.

goodbye.

2005-06-03T23:19:00.000+08:00

i am here again. these days im been blogging quite often huh. hmmm. just had this urge to blog about something which i noticed a few days ago.

well i was sending my darling jannnnnn to school. we took the train from sengkang to harbour front. it was 8am in the morning. people were mostly going to work. and so the train was packed. i noticed something which i found amusing. from where i stood. i saw 2 people. they had no relation to each other. but their actions just amused me. everytime the train was moving. they will close their eyes and get their 40 winks they needed. and when the train stopped at a station. they awoke and continued doing wat they were before. and when it moved off from the station again. in less than 15 seconds they will have dozed off again. one of them was a 20+ girl who was reading a book. actually she spent more time sleeping than reading. the other was a woman in her forties. they both seemed to fall asleep and wake up at the same time. even funnier was the fact that they swayed forwards and back as the train moved. and THEY SWAYED IN UNISON! haha. well i just found that amusing. i seldom take the mrt in the morning. so that was an interesting insight to the different kinds of people taking the mrt in the morning.

well well. tml afternoon will be the second leg clash between team 4D`2003 and a team from IMH. haha i think they are just a bunch of srjc boys. well we won the first leg 3-2. so our confidence is running high. and wat more. we have our beloved form teacher mr tkb playing for us :) guys i realli look forward to the match tml. one day we shld include the girls and have a mini 4D reunion maybe.

these few days has been heaven for my ddarling and i. sweetiee i love u alot please dun think i dun care about u. the onli time i dun care about u is when im sleeping. oh wait. even when i sleep i have nightmares of u. haha. im joking of course the dreams i have with u in it are the sweetest dreams i can ever ask for. baby u're the best thing that has even happened to me. as i said. the best there is. the best there was. and the best there ever will be :) i love u darling. mmuackss.

haha people sorry for getting a wee bit too mushy. dun worry i shall invite u all to my wedding then u can see how mushy i can be. trust me its worse than this :P ciaoss.

2005-06-01T04:19:00.000+08:00

well well wat do we have here. ahhh u funny looking. sighs. hello again people. i have too much time on my hands. wow its 4.20am evryones sleeping. how i wish i could too but i dun wanna miss the auspicious hour. im gonna die babes :)

anyway it seems that my problems are never ending. just when i thought my financial problems were gone. her comes my other problem. sigh darling. i realli regret everything that has happened. please come back. i need u. sighs.

its so cold right now. my nose is running like a sprinter. cant take it anymore. i shall camp under the comforter till its 6. my sweetie darling im coming for u. watch out. goodbyeee people.

2005-05-31T12:14:00.000+08:00

hi people.

wats there to blog about. my life is a bore. and its gonna be much much more boring sigh sigh sigh!

i hate school. hate it hate it hate it. im all alone. i hate being alone. fug the system. sighs.

life is dreadful. darling im gonna miss u. im sorry it all ever happened.

bye people.

2005-05-31T12:03:00.000+08:00

was listening to songs. and then one played. and suddenly reminded me of another.

1) Fuck It (Dont Want You Back) by Eamon
2) Fuck You Right Back by Frankee

its amazing how they could have a slugfest thru songs. i find the songs real cute.

Fuck It (I Don't Want You Back)

Whoa oh oh
Ooh hooh
No No No

[Verse 1:]
See, I dont know why I liked you so much
I gave you all, of my trust
I told you, I loved you, now thats all down the drain
Ya put me through pain, I wanna let u know how I feel

[Chorus:]
Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses, they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

[Verse 2:]
You thought, you could
Keep this shit from me, yeah
Ya burnt bitch, I heard the story
Ya played me, ya even gave him head
Now ya askin for me back
Ya just another act, look elsewhere
Cuz ya done with me

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah

Ya questioned, did I care
You could ask anyone, I even said
Ya were my great one
Now its, over, but I do admit I'm sad.
It hurts real bad, I cant sweat that, cuz I loved a hoe

Fuck what I said it dont mean shit now
Fuck the presents might as well throw em out
Fuck all those kisses they didn't mean jack
Fuck you, you hoe, I dont want you back

Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
Oh oh
Uh huh yeah
[Until the end]

F.U.R.B. (F U Right Back)

Oh oh
Oooh
No no no

(You know there is two sides to every story)

See I don't know why you cryin' like a bitch
Talkin' shit like a snitch
Why you write a song 'bout me
If you really didn't care
You wouldn't wanna share
Tellin' everybody just how you feel

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back

You thought you could really make me moan
I had better sex all alone (ha ha ha ha)
I had to turn to your friend
Now you want me to come back
You must be smokin' crack
Im goin' else where and thats a fact

Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it, I faked it, aren't you proud
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what yo, your sex was wack

Fuck all those nights I moaned real loud
Fuck it, I faked it, aren't you proud
Fuck all those nights you thought you broke my back
Well guess what yo, your sex was wack

Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea

Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea

Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea

Whoa whoa
Uh uh yea

You questioned did I care
Maybe I would have if you woulda gone down there
Now it's over
But I do admit i'm glad I didn't catch your crabs
I can't sweat that cause I got to go

Fuck what I did was your fault somehow
Fuck the presents, I threw all that shit out
Fuck all the cryin' it didn't mean jack
Well guess what yo, fuck you right back.

oh oh
uh uh yea
oh oh
uh uh yea
oh oh
uh uh yea
oh oh
uh uh yea

You made me do this

whaahaha its not onli cute. its hilarious as well. heh.

2005-05-29T23:28:00.000+08:00

sometimes i wonder.

1) why do u even bother to _____________________.
2) how the hell can people compare _____________.
3) how can u even think dat i __________________.

sigh
SIGH
sigh
siGh
just sigh!

2005-05-22T07:13:00.000+08:00

im back from a mahjong session. a good one i must say. got all the luck. well maybe not all. was so damn unlucky in 2 games. made super big. intercepted. ouch so pain. doesnt realli matter anyway i won :D well very tired now. have about 4 hours sleep. then its off to sentosa. last day to enjoy before the school term. palawan here we come. peace out peeps. and darling i <3 u ^^

2005-05-18T05:36:00.000+08:00

its 5.35 am and here i am blogging. 3 hours more. and i can see my darling again. how i missed her. even though its onli 6 hours since i last saw her. and our last conversation was a quarrel. sighs. well anyway i decided not to sleep. for fear that i might not wake up. darling see how much u mean to me =P well i have alot of time to kill. so might as well blog.

slacked the whole day at home ytd. at the same time worrying about my financial crisis. SIGH! well the problem is temporarily solved for now. but doom is near. i have to be prepared for the impending crisis which is 8 times more painful than the current one. zZ.

went to meet janice chew xing fen at night. long journey so boring. luckily had tv mobile as my companion on the journey. new show called my sassy neighbour. another of the PCK wannabes but still far from it. try harder mediacorp. before that was the food show coffee talk and hawker woks. hmms the food shown was tempting. espcially the nasi briyani. yum yumm. looks nice darling i shall bring u there one day. if i can still rmb where it is. met her then went for supper with our pathetic $5.60 at our regular prata stall. 2 prata bombs, one egg prata, teh peng and mango drink. all for $5.60. even the coins were used up. powerful huh. then headed home for the mrt.

stupid darling cannot rmb wat i bought for her birthday. she says her memory is poor. hrmphhhh. then nx time i dun nid to buy so u dun haf to rmb? haha jk i will buy more so u dont even haf to try remembering. dats when i got money la. sigh the word money is killing me. money makes the world go round. my world is square now. no money!! geddit? ok no link =/

went to les hse after that. they were finishing their round of mahjong. les, mon, bells and ch. then went for supper. AGAIN! walked to our regular haunt. guys we might not be doing this as often anymore cause school's gonna reopen soon. but there is still the weekends. still can mj =x slacked at the kopitiam till 2.30 then went over to 7-11. i had ice cream. then we walked bells home. started to drizzle. pondered over whether to take cab. decided to walk in the rain. so me mon and ch strolled. and chatted about anything under the sun, stars, moon, sky, whatever.

reached home at 3.30. bathed all that. and came online to slack. read the newspaper. its getting real thin. no interesting news these days. such a boring morning. well its almost 6. dats good. one hour more and i can go bathe. just drench myself under the shower. dat will be so cool. and crazy.

well well well. nothing else to blog about. life has been the same old story. slack. and darling. and more slack. and still the same darling =x

darling all these quarrels we had. it could have been prevented. if onli we had the crime prevention squad. quick call 999. its cold. why? cold joke la duhh. forgoodness sake its 6am u cant blame me for laming. anyway darling just wanna say i love u despite the quarrels we had and will have in future. and please stop laughing at bapok in mrt. love yaaa muackss.

2005-05-17T04:32:00.000+08:00

wats happening.
something is happening.
i can just sense it.
but wat is it.
and if its wat i think it is.
why.
why is it happening.
sigh.
stop it.
no more.
argh!

2005-05-16T10:01:00.000+08:00

helloooo people. i just farted. it stinks =/

well well. its 10am. so early. got up at 7.45 to so called "send" my girlfriend to school. i love her alot. so 7.45 is nothing.

didnt have a good sleep last night. keep waking up. wat was i dreaming about i cant rmb. but it sure was disturbing. felt very hot too. on the aircon at 6.45. but abit too late. once i got cosy it was time to wake up. zzzzzzzzz.

well anyway. its abit chilly today. i'm gonna be so BORED. no girlfriend for company. no dota. no nothing. well it seems i can finally get my well deserved sleep right now. cyaa peeps.

oh yah congrats to peck for winning our asianbookie challenge. u are super tyco. my computer got bug!!

roddy out-

jan baby i love u no matter wat. i did call. well. love yaaa.

2005-05-13T07:14:00.000+08:00

well lets see. its been 10 days since the last entry. time flies. FOW and FOC is over. was fun being in log com. made up of mostly ppl i didnt noe before these 9 days. except my darling and minniemouse. well one might say that these people just increase the number of friends in your friendster list. but well. these are the people that made me feel welcome to the family. people like yongzhuang, hanwei, jason, ahfat and so on. these people has made these past 9 days much more enjoyable for me. especially my darling who was there by my side whenever she could. well darling. camp is over. u have no more excuses not to accompany me anymore.

very soon. school is gonna start. i guess. its gonna be year 1.5 for me. all because of a dumb decision i made. which has prevented me from moving on to year 2. sigh. nevertheless, im gonna work hard this sem. i have to. top 25% maybe? or just dreaming maybe? haha. hmms but anyway. i dunnoe wat the future holds for me. but i guess. its one step at the time.

life goes on. mine too. but with more shit in it. still yet to settle my mountain of debts. sorry guys. im taking very long to pay up. pointless to say anything now. ive gotten myself into the shit. now lets slowly dig my way out of it. wan some shit minnie?

anyway its 7.30am. very early. i need my sleep. lets just wait till darling wakes up at 9. then i can go sleep. hmmms. its 16+ hours to the first month. just wanna say i love ya alot darling. muacks.

2005-05-03T16:01:00.000+08:00

was at chihans hse yesterday when belinda made a passing remark that i do not update my blog. hmmm. so well. here she goes.

just ate half a tub of naepolitan ice cream. so nice! hmmmm going for camp later. dats good. time to get away from the family. although there will be no more slacking sessions and mahjong sessions for the time being. so sad! but nvm. i'll have my darling with me. and my duet as well. so good!

hmmmms nth much t0 blog about la life has been plain boring. oh my mahjong luck recently has been goood. SO GOOD!

some shoutouts to some people now.

belinda: there i've updated :)

mon: welcome back man. we realli missed the 4th player when u were gone LOL.

chihan: gonna miss slacking for the next few days. anyway good luck with ur mahjong. i shall play with u when im back. BUT PLEASE DUN GO LOSE ALL IN POKER.

sherry: so happy u have woken up. very good for u. smilee :)

larrina: stupid duet u better take care of me during the camp at the times when jan cant. if not. GO EAT SHIT :)

those who visit my blog: oh well. finally an update huh. been waiting long? lol. anyway thanks for visiting :)

and last but not least.

my darling jan: darling its been very tough for the both of us these few days. anyway i believe we can put the quarrels behind us and be happy. at least for the camp ok. and also forever and ever la. love u lots muacksss.

2005-04-25T02:04:00.000+08:00

im back from work. hmmms lets seee. i made my girlfriend angry. sighs.

anyway work was anything but fun. incredibly boring. went to t2 for attachment at around 10. the work there was ok la. just stood at counter. but one thing i noticed. the customers there is damn fcked up. zzzz. much worse than t1.

my muscles were still in pain. so cool. went to cold room to take stock. floor was slippery and my legs split. my groin hurt like fck. super pain try jabbing urself in ur groin. and its worse than dat. ouch? well everyone pls note wat lack of exercise can do to u. it can hurt u and kill u slowly with the pain. haha.

time to sleep now boy. must not think to much. jan, i just wanna say i love u i didnt mean for things to happen this way. sighs. sorryy.

2005-04-24T13:37:00.000+08:00

its a boring sunday. very very boring. why? cause i haf nth to do. hmmmmmmmmmm.

had a soccer matchiee ytd. ouch. the joints are hurting. probably due to lack of exercise. but anyways. we won. conglats team 4D. i was shouting all over. demoralising the opponents. playing very dirty. and looking very innocent after all the bad challenges. haha. guess the opposite team hated me. so much dat one even stepped on my bare feet with his studs. and i go ouch! well it was a very enjoyable meeting with the peeps. we shall meet up again someday. i shall try to do better. and not curl the ball when it would have gone in had i shot straight :P

went for tpjc dancefest on friday. conglats to lynn and adam for their 2nd runner-up placing. cool dance. heeeyyyy yaaa~!! left the party early. can u call it a party? well maybe. think of it as clubbing without the alchohol. bodies gyrating to the loud hip hop music. choo-choo trains formed on the dancefloor. no it was the tpjc hall floor. people dancing wildly. hmmm wat am i saying all this for. im just bored!!

have to work later. ssoooooo tired. lets hope the muscles dont ache as much as they do now later. if not its gonna be one hell of a ride. my hair is long. i wanna cut it. someone give me money for it please. im so broke. SO SO SO SO SO BROKE! fckd. life is messy. messy messy me. when will it be over. hmmm lets seeee next year? wtf mate. z.

well i shall end off now. nothing much to crap about. oh yah conglats to pope benjamin on his newly appointed post. THE POPE! wtf was dat for. anyways ciaos.

2005-04-19T13:34:00.000+08:00

i have a darling.
and her name is janice chew xing fen.
she complains.
that i never blog about her anymore.
so darling.
this is for u and u only.
i love u alot alot alot.
alot more than larrina like me.
HAHAHAHAHAHA.
love ya darling muacks <3.

2005-04-09T04:00:00.000+08:00

hohoho. wanted to blog earlier ytd morning. but dumb blogger. dunno why cannot post. well anyway its 4am right now. so nice. i saved my entry which i had wanted to post. and i shall post it now.

sup ppl. this is a post. haha? hmms. well. as requested by jansss and the dudu minniemouse. here goes.

super shagged right now. just got back from work. nothing much to do at work though. just tired. perhaps it was due to lack of sleep. hmmms. cant be. i slept 9 hours. and i slept thru 50 missed calls. yes 50 :)

2 days ago was happening man. jan and rina came over for a swim. in the end they swam for 20 mins and slacked in my room for the rest of the time. went to airport after dat. jan went to work. me and rina ate at popeye. yumms. then rina went home while i waited for jan awhile. then went off to meet mon and bel at tm starbucks. slacked for abt 1hr+ as we waited till 9.30 when the sushi at ntuc was half price =x. after buying the sushi. went over to chihan's hse. all of us gathered there. me, mon, bel, ch, keong, peck, jun and benny. played blackjack till around 2am. then walked over the tampines mart coffeeshop to watch soccer. chelsea huatttt. hahaha. peck treated us to indian rojak after his $700 win. after that went to juns hse for mahjong session. very good won $20 with mon. then went home and slept at around 11.

woke up at 6+. and saw 50 missed calls and 3 messages on my hp. the missed calls were all from jan. im so pig man. after dat continued sleeping till 8. had dinner and off to work at 9. worked till this morning. now im tired. but. later still going to meet jun and ch for breakfast at 201. hmms. my sister has ballet exams todae. and she doesnt have to go to school. so good. why did i just say dat. hmms no idea just nth to say.

eh nth else to add on. to everybody who ask me to update here u are. enjoy. cyaaa.

hahaha well after writing dat went out to meet ch, jun, keong and peck at 201 for breakfast. me jun and ch hardly had any sleep before dat. so all were feeling quite shagged. after breakfast went to the bank for awhile. i got new atm card. yay. but wats the use no money inside man. then went to juns hse to get monopoly and risk before cabbing to ch hse. played risk first. so fun. although i couldnt achive my mission. it seems that if i were the army general my troops will definitely die first. wahahaha. then played monopoly. I WON! lol. thanks to my strategy of not giving others wat they want. i leeched money slowly. and got my hotels up. super song. hahhaa. by then it was already 6pm. so tired. i rubbed my eyes till it was so small. and red. and painful. then they went for dinner. while i went home to sleep. slept very lightly keep waking up to sms. until 3 woke up. ate a little. and now here i am. heh.

woah this has been a super long entry. actually not so man. but its 2 in 1. just add hot water can alrdy. im laming. brain disabled. goodbye!

2005-03-17T02:27:00.000+08:00

LONESTAR - AMAZED

Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams

I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time, every time
I want to spend the whole night in your eyes

Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I want to spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby, I'm amazed by you

yes i'm amazed by u. lost i found love and you. please unscramble ^^.

2005-03-11T00:37:00.000+08:00

hmms. i was testing out skins using my blog. and decided to blog since i was logged in. but then. i got nth to blog about.

well. school's coming to an end. actually it ended 4 weeks ago. HAHAHA. study week is here. then come the exams. im assured of a fail in every subject i'm taking. congrats to me. haha. it seems everyone is studying hard and mugging for the exams. except me. feel so left out. life gets bored. and theres no one to share my boredom with. haha.

well life has its trials and tribulations. and im definitely going thru it now. actually ive gone thru it since i dunnoe when. this chapter of my life is ending soon. it has been a bad bad chapter. a nightmare. hopefully the next chapter will be better. watever it is. there is this one chapter which will come. but one which i dream. dats when u leave.

2005-03-08T14:48:00.000+08:00

well well wat do we have here. wow. its roddy's blog! im just lame. sorry. so long nv blog. more of lazy then busy. just suddenly had the urge to blog. although i dun have much to say.

well. hmmms. errr. these few days. nth much. i still havent re-attended lessons. dunnoe where to begin. i can never do well in the exams. too far behind. hmmms. but. can i even sit for the exam? please debar me. thanks ah.

sooo bored. gonna go watch hitch later. hmms. i must save up. datelines are coming. i need to work again soon. and i mean real real soon. cause i need money. anyone wants to give me money? i'll be glad to do anything in return. anything. i mean ANYTHING!!

anyway nth else to say. been listening to rock ya body by stagga lee for these pass few days. nice beats. i likeee. rock ur body mic check 1 2 la la la la la la la =x

_______________________ eyes on u.

2005-02-27T06:36:00.000+08:00

hmmms. just reached home frm mj session at les hse. well well. I WON!! lol. its been some time since i won at his house. kind of suay luck at his hse. haha minnie i owe u a treat? hmms. we'll see how hahaha.

well dun realli have much to blog abt. just a typical saturday. woke up around late noon. then came online. internet is getting boring. was rotting in front of the monitor. and i mean realli rotting. met jan and her frens at around 6. they ate while i watched. jan once again im sorry for all dat happened. please dun be so unhappy anymore. give a smile. u always look good when u give that cute face of urs. smile more please.

haiz well well nth else to say bah. time to sleep. like she said. tml will be a better day. hopefully.

Only One - Yellowcard

Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one who gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

Here I go so dishonestly
Leave a note for you my only one
And I know you can see right through me
So let me go and you will find someone

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try to get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one, no one like you
You are my only, my only one
My only one
My only one
My only one
You are my only, my only one

2005-02-24T23:56:00.000+08:00

hmmm. its so seldom that i blog twice in a day. but well. no choice i need a place to let go. super dulannn man. my parents. wats up with them. i already make known my decision. i want out of the course. cant they understand. no point telling me to go for lessons. im bent on switching. told them i wanted to withdraw. so wat if im competing with the 2004 batch. well so now i didnt withdraw. and still i have to compete with them. and when the warning letters come. they get angry. so the up and coming letters are worse than just warning letters. and nobody i noe has got them before. so? u think i wanna be the first to get it? well. dun blame it on me. blame it on urself. u didnt want me to withdraw. so stop complaining now. its useless. mechatronics is over for me. absolutely no more. goodbye!

why cant u just let me do.
the things i wanna do.
i just wanna be me.
i dont understand.

2005-02-24T14:51:00.000+08:00

im super bored right now. so here i am. hmmms. didnt go school again. i havent attended lessons for 3 weeks now. and i cant go back now. after missing so much. if i go back now. the feelings is just wierd. so jan hope u understand my actions. yes i also dun wan any more warning letters. but ive missed so much. the letters are on the way anyway.

these days have been damn bored. theres just nothing to do at home. nothing to surf online. life suckss. i seriously need a job. then at least i got something to do instead of rot at home. i have one month left. and i realli need the money badly. so hopefully i settle my course transfer quickly. its been dragging too long now. dumb me.

its been 4 days and my mummy still nv msg me. super sad why she msg jan nv msg me. its not my fault i cant work at bk wad. u think i wan? if can i also wan work lor i need the cash lor. everything is just so dumb.

caught hide and seek with jan ytd. jan dearest i wanst scared lor. its those girls screaming shock me. REALLIEEE!!! anyway it was funrite. u got to laugh at me so much. idiots. lets watch boogeyman next =x

omg i onli took 8 minutes to type watever i have typed. and im still bored. anyone got plans? please ask me out before i self destruct.

anyway going sch later to meet the biz sch course manager i think. not sure also la. why must meet and meet all these man. just transfer me into the sch la. and get it over with. dumb earthlings. goodbye!

** euuu makeee me wannnaa la la __

2005-02-20T23:41:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey wassssup its me in da house. lol just laming. im bored. so here i am. blogging. on this lonely sunday night. haha well ive almost lost my voice. jan says its sexy. haha. jan its ur fault im sick so please take care of me =x

hmmm a lil shagged now la. sleepy man. mj session at les hse ytd night. lost. the prata and belinda killed me and chihan. reached home at 7 this morning. and KO in my bed. woke up to go toilet at 11+. was about to go back to sleep. then i saw 5 missed calls on my phone. it was jannn!! went to loyang point with her. had lunch theree. sent her home then went to juns house for mj again. seriously i super shagged. and with my sexy voice. i lost again. haha. abit onli la. we scammed keong of $36 super song man. wahhahaa. played till 8 then went to 201 for dinner. super waste money i spent $6.50. the milo cheat money lor. and to yenwei. sorry la i dunnoe the diff between ice soursop and ice jelly with soursop. haha.

came home then watched all star weekend. super cool man their dunks. haaaang time. went to bathe then now online. mums nagging again. they have been nagging since my warning letter came a few days ago. stupid shit i do not wanna go to school anymore please dun force me. i shall go to school again next sem. and i will work hard. i dun wan study dumb mechatronics anymore. please spare me. arghh.

2005-02-06T01:05:00.000+08:00

sup. im in airport transit right now. just knocked off work. got 11 minutes to blog before this system auto restarts lol. so better hurry.

well someone is angry with me... again. im sorry. but i was just joking. yes im childish. and i always disturb u and say u. then expect it to be over just by saying sorry. its always the case right. bet ure getting tired of it. well i got nothing to say. im just stupid got nothing better to do dun think before i say things or act. sorry.

my nose is feeling uncomfortable again. it was ok just now. not anymore. well i can go home soon. and get some much need rest. actually abit useless. im finding it hard to sleep these days. its like im sleeping very lightly. wake up every hour or so. then go back to sleep. then when wake up in the morning. im still tired. zzzz. yes yes abit like pig. but cant help it. i didnt choose to be like dis.

6 mins left. but i nothing much to say leh. going back to store soon. so bored. hope dat someone has cooled down. bye ppl.

2005-02-04T21:34:00.000+08:00

hello. im blogging again. good news for sher and jan who keep asking me to blog. lol.

well im down with flu. its bad. sneezed the whole day. i used up alot of bk napkins. lol. my throat feels awful now. cant even drink water. it'll get worse.

anyway today was a very boring day. went to airport at around 3 for lunch with elizabeth. so nice of her to accompany me while i ate. after dat followed grandma to yishun to meet mummy. then went home. and again i felt bored. very tired now. i think im gonna turn in early today. just finished writing a letter for someone. hehe. get it from me tml k. miss ya.

hais here i am. im sick. but do my parents care. obviously not. all the care about is nagging about my hp bill. terminate it then. it doesnt matter. dumb shit.

well it might be a short entry. but its better than nothing rite. haha cya peeps.

2005-02-04T01:22:00.000+08:00

wheeeeeesuppeepsitsmeimboredandimgonnasleeplolcyaaaaard.

2005-01-28T02:22:00.000+08:00

well well. im updating at the request of sherry. haha. hmmm i just did an online quiz. which determines the age we act. well dats wat it says la. and guess wat. they said. that i act like a 12-year-old. DAMN DEMORALISING LOR. seriously im very sad. am i realli dat childish? well anyway the quiz i think is spoilt or something la. I DUN ACT LIKE IM 12 LOR. zzz.

well anyway just came back abt an hour ago frm airport. nth to do went down watch jan work. jac was on shift. poor thing la she. some things have to let go cannot drag longer. hmm but action speaks louder than words. say is easy but do is not. haiz. well my life has been damn boring la nothing much to say lor. hmm well tml my m409 peeps coming over. benson and gang. swim, tennis and so on. its gonna be fun.

im not tired yet. but im bored. hmmm. i still cant get over the quiz thing. dammit.

hmm where am i heading. where are we heading. where are u heading. questions that onli we ourselves noe the answer to.

anyway mummy is sick. and she blames me for it =/ sorry mummy. i onli wanted u have dinner with me mah. sorry sorry. please take care of yourself and get well soon. i still wan u work with me on saturday leh.

hmm. my hp line. i think gonna get suspended soon. rcvd an sms saying my bill is overdue. and i got no money to pay. no use asking from my mum. cause if she had money my bill wouldnt have been overdue anyway. cause i pay thru her giro account. well nvm. i can still live without hp. not like last time. hmm this reminds me of the time when both mine and her hp was confiscated by our parents 2 yrs ago. so cute. haha. well nth to say le. ive got nothing to do. hmm listen songs. onli ony by yellowcard rox. and of course my darling avril so so so rox.

oh yah. I DUN ACT LIKE IM 12!!

2005-01-21T04:20:00.000+08:00

its 4.20 am. good morning. happy hari raya haji. im bored. dats why im blogging. well the term test are over. anyway term test didnt make a difference. since i didnt realli study. well its over. biz sch here i come.

well been slacking quite alot over the past few days. slacking at chihan's house after the tests. dota-ing the day away. went back to school to watch netball with sherry. hey i was dmnnetball biggest fan back then ok. well longxin looked great umpiring. although in her all black outfit she looked kinda out of place. well wat does longxin have to do with my blog anyway. hmm met up with lynnie too. been a long time. so dont blame me for being so quiet. i had nothing to say la. adam too. cool steel balls u got.

later on in the evening. got bbq. organised by alvin. 21! its gonna be fun i can tell. bring extra clothes please cause we gonna dump alvin into the sea. well next week is a good time for a long rest. but i dun think i can afford it now. need to work. so broke. thought of going to fullerton to work banquet. but im not dat sure also. i wan a simplerr job. hais. well. i tot i could get the well needed rest. im exhausted. lack of sleep. its not dat im so busy dat i got not much sleep. im not. in fact i got alot of time and opportunity to sleep. i just dunnoe why im not making good use of it. wat am i thinking. haiz.

well i just realised how a simple conversation can take away the temporary happiness u got. words kill. think before u speak? well i realli didnt mean wat i said. guess u misread it. but cant blame u maybe i did make u sound like one. im sorry. but i realli didnt mean it that way. sorry.

its getting late now. actually it has been late for the past few hours. its time to sleep. will tml be a better day? u never noe. will u even wake up? u never noe too. life is simply unpredictable.

2005-01-17T17:20:00.000+08:00

new skin new skin.
done in 2 hours.
I SIMPLY LOVE AVRIL LAVIGNE!
ROAR~!

2005-01-10T23:50:00.000+08:00

i was lying on the bed. and thoughts flew by. then i remembered the dream i had a few nights ago.

i miss talking on the phone with u.
i miss accompanying u while u do ur homework at night.
i miss meeting u at the bus stop and walking to school with u.
i miss ur daily sms-es.
i miss walking u home after school.
i miss teasing u.
i miss walking behind u because u walked too fast.
i miss buying for u chocolates for u everyday.
i miss those times i spent with u.

i think i miss u.

- the red zipper. wonder wat my sis has done to it. wat happened to ur pink one?
- ur nametag. its still on my computer table. staring back at me as i type this.
- andes chocolates. till now the onli mint flavoured chocolates i eat.
- vanilla fragrance. i still smell it sometimes on buses. and ur the first thing dat comes to mind.

well. i guess i realli do miss u. too bad. well its over now. u moved on. so have i. but everytime i think of the times we spent together. i just cant help but smile. u brought happiness to my life. thanks a million. =)

2005-01-10T22:55:00.000+08:00

well ive neglected my blog for quite a long time. haha poor thing. 2005. just 2 weeks into it. and i hate it already. my life is in a complete mess. studies and so on. everything is so wrong. the worst thing is. there is nobody to tell all this too. parents? negative. friends? well it just feels awkward. so there i am taking in all the problems by myself. sometimes i just wish that life could be one without problems. then it will be so much easier to live. or maybe life could end faster. but again, im afraid of death. so damn afraid.

term tests next week. and im so not prepared. havent studied a single thing yet. well whether i may even sit for the term test is not confirmed yet. thinking of changing courses. talked to my mum abt it just now. and instead she comes and shoot me say i onli noe how to play and not study. well i've lost my interest in the subjects. no interest = no motivation = dead brain cells in school. i dun even feel like going to school these days. its simply a torture. well wat to do. these days wat matters is the cert. u are nothing without one. so i guess im nothing too. well i'll just talk to the careperson tml and see how it goes. watever it is. im hell bent on switching courses. i just cant take it anymore.

next up is me and jan. why are we always quarrelling. i always try to give in. but sometimes i just cant do anything. i wan this friendship to go on. but i feel dat as the days pass our friendship is getting much weaker. watever it is. just wan u to noe dat i treasure the fact that i ever got to noe u. if ur reading this. no more quarrels k?

well there are other things which i think i shldnt go into detail. watever it is. life is just sucky for me now. nothing is going rite. everything is wrong. W-R-O-N-G! its still 11.15pm. still early by my standards. had a nap just now. so not that tired. but i have nothing to do. and i have no mood to study for my coming lab tests and next weeks term test. so i guess. i'll just go and rest on my bed and slack. perhaps do a reflection on 2004 and my whole life. i guess theres nothing much i achieved. so there wont be much to reflect on. well life's like dat. cye ppl.

2005-01-02T21:46:00.000+08:00

well well well. its sunday. its january. and its 2005! hmm. well quite a fun start to the new year. all started last thursday. cc's chalet at tanah merah safra resort. sooooo fun man. blackjack with alvin is always fun. 21! lol. well when people were sleeping next door. we were shouting at the top of our voices making sure they heard us. LOL. well played cards till around 4. then watched seed of chucky. so boring man. i cant believe i sat thru 3/4 of it and then walk off just at the most interesting part of the show. zzz. but couldnt help it it was dat damn boring and i was dat damn cold. finally had space to sleep at around 6. wanted to sleep for at least 30 mins. but then. somebody took my space. so i just sat there and sms-ed. till ard 7 ch dad drove 7 of us to tampines central. all had to go school one. lol sad case. me and benny spend alot of time thinking on whether to go for an mc instead. in the end went to school.

had ckt lab. then could go home. was already on the bus. then keong called. asteroids. zzzz. so took a bus back the opposite direction back to school. had lunch then took a cab down to asteroids. i played my worst ever dota games. too tired. lol. took a cab home and slept like a pig. but then onli 4 hours man. woke up at ard 8. then met ch and les then went off to meet the others at pasir ris mrt. had dinner at mac. so nice and filling. then walked to downtown. saw hq and ls and cc there. counted down at downtown lor. then walked to fishermans village. me xiu and ch made a song dedication to the rest. and we left out benny's name. lol sorry mr bear. see lah dun wan return peck his roc rite. haha. while walking had a nice conversation with ch and miaowen. thanks guys for trying to cheer me up. well im just unlucky. haha. anyway realli appreciate ur efforts esp miaowen cause we dont realli noe each other dat long. onli play blackjack 3 times together rite. ahaha. walked to elias mall after dat. walked thru sungei api api park. so dark, quiet and scary. no lights. well we were practically shouting out the dunman school song. yes shouting out not singing. lol. and it was 2am. pity those who were trying to sleep at the nearby residences. got some drinks and snacks then took a cab to leslie's house. played blackjack. then went to sleep.

woke up thanks to janice's alarm in the morning. sent her home then went home myself. bathed. then went to leslie's house again. lol. dota abit. then mummy called me out to go catch a movie. so walked home again. changed all dat. then went to tm to meet mummy, boss and wan ting. watched kung fu hustle. funny show. but abit too fake. well it was a great show anyway. then bought dinner to leslie's house. played mahjong till around 3. i think the fengshui not good. in 2 whole rounds, i only game twice. the cards were nice. but just cant game or someone else game first. damn unlucky mann. then played monopoly at 4. i was the first to bankrupt. by 6 i was gone. haha. so i went off to sleep. at first i had the whole bed to myself. including a comfortablle comforter. but when i woke up the next morning, keong was beside me. and he took away me comforter. lucky i had my sweater on. not dat cold.

dota-ed a little. then mahjong again at 5. till around 8. packed up. and walked home. then came online. i miss my computer. haha well i'm officially broke now. no money. need a better temp job which has a better income during the term break. im badly in debt. hopefully get the temp f&n job during cny period. then will be able to pay off my debts. and still have money to spend. haha. so sad. my sis just showed me her new shoes. i want those shoessss!! well she has the money. and i dont =[ so i need to worrkkkk harddd. and i still have to pay my hp bill. whopping $192 this month. even surpassed last month's record. have to cut down. i think i can since my free incoming has been shifted to after 7pm instead. hopefully that would help.

its so cold. past few days very very cold leh. even the water heater cant keep me wark when im bathing. its not dat i like the sun. but the weather is too cold. but if i had avril with me singing the song im with u then nvm la. "its a damn cold night~!". LOL

well. 2005 has been a mixed year so far. well cant realli judge its onli 2 days. hopefully it will be better than last yr in every aspect. well ive not made any resolution. i dun even think of it every year. cause by march or so, i always forget my resolution. hahaha. so guess its a waste of time. well nothing else to say now. happy new year to all~! ciaos.

2004-12-27T01:16:00.000+08:00

been 2 weeks since i updated. hmm. not much time la. my life is hectic these days. except for school. everything has been fun fun fun. haha.

hmm monday had a bbq to celebrate me and my cousins bdae at my aunt's hse. peck jun keong and vanessa were there. so were my aunties uncles and cousins. even daphne and camila were there. thanks guys. realli realli fun time dat night.

the next day had a bbq at bennett's hse after school. didnt eat much. played mahjong and chilled at the playground till ard 11 then shared a cab with keong peck and bran. been a long time since i saw bennett. he got beautiful friends! lol.

wednesday had dinner at east coast seafood with managers of my workplace. jac got a promotion and wanted to treat us. chye peng, chye huat, andrew and yvonne were also there. very filling dinner. the chilli crab sauce was superb. reached home close to 11.

thursday. well. happy 17th bdae to me. yes finally. after everyone else had had theirs. it was finally my turn. lol. went out with keong mon ch and leslie after school. got a xmas present for janice. realli hope she likes it. walked until around 11 then went to ch hse. played dota till around 4 then left. walked home. then slept like a pig. lolx.

friday. xmas eve. had dinner with mummy at billy bombers. she wanted kenny rogers but the one at century i think closeed down for renovations. so settled for billy bombers. the food was ok i guess. but the price wasnt. lol. met jan and boss after dat. boss ate at pastamania while we watched. then off to leslie's house for bbq. was supposed to be a countdown. but ppl were so busy doing their things, e.g dota-ing, eating, mahjong-ing, playing ps2. that we totally missed the coutdown. hahaha.
so many people. even huiqi was there. slacked the whole night. played monopoly, blackjack, mahjong. till around 7. then walked to loyang point macdonald for breakfast. so damn hot lor they nv on the aircon.

back to les hse after dat. me keong peck and yixiu slept. woke up ard 3. peck and les was chatting. keong was dota-ing. then played monopoly. monopoly had never been so fun man. played till 7pm then walked home. all of them had a swim. damn fun. then went for dinner/supper at 10. ate at 201. the food sucked leh. waste money. went back to ch hse after dat. dota till 7am the next day. till my neck ached. then walked home and slept again.

woke up by mon at around 3 today. he asked whether wanted to watch kung fu hustle. so we all met at ard 8. me peck mon les ch xiu and xian. benny joined us later on. they onli had front row seats at tm. and second row seats at century. so instead watched meet the fockers. nice show realli. we were fockerized. lol. the baby sibei cute esp when he said asshole. hahaha. went home after dat. my sis got a new hp. x68. i wanna change too. but i will wait. till 7270 comes out. rmb dat phone lings? haha.

well anyway i think this has been quite a long entry. to those who remembered my bdae. thanks a million. to huiqi. i got ur card liao. how come almost the same as last yr de. lol. even the envelope is the same. haha. and to lings. I MISS YOU~!

2004-12-13T22:22:00.000+08:00

its 10.23pm. im bored =[ a little bit tired. well nvm. lets just blog!

sch started at 9 today. realli didnt feel like going for first few lessons. but heck. no choice. sch was super sian! listened to zhou jie lun in lecture and tutorial. haha. dat was the onli great part.

went to safra to play bowling after school with weithong, benson, terence and zhizhong. ok lah not bad. hmm actually i was very bad. second game 71 onli =/ wat was i thinking sia. well anyways had a fun time with those guys. next time we bowl i wont let u all off =P

took a bus to woodlands to meet mummy after dat. long journey. slept in the bus. woke up just nice woodlands interchange. haha. was 20 mins early. so decided to have a haircut first. my sisters and cousins and newly acquired god-sis keep laughing when they saw my hairstyle. in other words, UGLY! =[ anyway met mummy at 6.30 then took 168 back to tampines. she noes something which i dont. and she is not telling. damn bad of her. hmm then she met boss while i went home. nothing to do ma then they going for dinner while i had mine waiting at home.

had a bath and dinner when i got home. then watched a little tv. then walked to loyang point by myself. had to do something. on the way back. thoughts lingered in my mind. im sad =( anyway reached home around 10 then came online. and decided to blog.

hmm. why am i getting the feeling that we are slowly falling apart. guess wat i thought would happen is realli gonna happen. i just cant take it. i cant face reality. wat am i to do. somebody save me. damn. bye.

2004-12-12T11:10:00.000+08:00

dear blogger. blah blah blah blah. hehe its time to blog again. after one week of non existance. first week of school gone. totally sucks =/ long days every day. and onli one hour breaks. damn sad. m409 mostly stayed together. except for a few. well some new classmates here and there. so uninteresting =P

hmm yeasterday was a very happening day. guys night out. haha. woke up at around 3. very tired after a night of mahjong non stop. onli slept at 7. hmm bathe all dat then met up with pecky and leslie at 4. went to play billiards. benny, monster and chihan joined us soon later. played 2 games. then off to tm for a movie. blade trinity. not a bad movie. the female vampire slayer is cute. haha. hmmm then took the mrt to paya lebar. had dinner at the shopping centre next to it. singapore post building or sth. not sure. ate kfc. hmmm nice nice. then took a cab down to asteroids. bad idea. no coms there. keong and jun joined us there. so we took a cab to crc at toa payoh. keong and peck are realli gambling siao man. in the cab also can play blackjack. haha. played dota and cs till 6 am in the morning. then took a bus back to jun's hse. reached there around 7+ then mahjong-ed till 1030. then took a cab home. quite happening rite. haha. if onli we could do this every week. but hell no. cause i will be bankrupt by the end of the month. actually im already bankrupt =/

well its sunday morning already. in abt 12 hours it will be monday. and its time for school. i realli dun feel like going to school. but i haf to. damn. and i miss my lingss too =( well dats life. life sucks. hmmmmm feeling very shagged now. so i guess its time to sleeeeeeeeep. cyaaa.

2004-12-05T04:12:00.001+08:00

finally im blogging. its mummy's bdae today. happy bdae mummy. 22 yrs old liao. hope u enjoy this day and have a wonderful year ahead of you.

anyway today went for dinner with mummy, boss, wan ting and chye huat. then off to tampines kbox for ktv. was damn tired the whole day. slept onli 3 hrs the day before. was at marina south with jac and yvonne until 4.30. then sent janice to work at 7am. slept onli at 9. till 1. so tiring. anyway kbox was fun. mummy has alot of talent in singing. i mean it. janice also. hmm. but not wan ting. haha. well maybe she was drunk. LOL. they sang and sang till 2. even jessie joined us. fun fun day.

darlings. im gonna miss u alot. esp now since sch has reopened. i dunnoe wat to say or do anymore. im just lost. haiz. no matter wat i love u alotts. well just a short entry for today. very shagged. hope my mum will let me out in the morning tml. then i can meet lings. well i realli hope so but i doubt she will allow me out of the house. esp after my hp bill came. $180 omg wtf was i thinking. 2581 sms. GOOD JOB LA. well anyway. im gonna pay dat bill using my pay this month. which isnt much. i cant get my line cut off man. its my onli link to lings and mummy. so its dat damn important. anyway this supposedly short entry is getting a lil long now. shall end off here. nites peeps.

2004-11-30T01:12:00.000+08:00

"Over My Head (Better Off Dead)"

What happened to you
You've played the victim for so long now in this game
What I thought was true
Is made of fiction and I'm following the same

But if I try to make sense of this mess I'm in
I'm not sure where I should begin
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'

[Chorus:]
Now I'm in over my head
with something I said
Completely misread
I'm better off dead
And now I can see
How fake you can be
This hypocrisy is beginning to get to me

It's none of my concern
Don't look to me because I don't believe in fame
I guess you never heard
I've met our makers they don't even know your name

But if I had to say goodbye to leave this hell
I'd say my time has served me well
I'm fallin'
I'm fallin'

[Chorus]

[Bridge]
This came long before
Those who suffer more
I'm too awake for this to be a nightmare

What's with my disgrace
I lost the human race
No one plans for it to blow up in their face

Who said it was easy to put back all these pieces
Who said it was so easy to put back all of these pieces

[Chorus]

Over my head
Better off dead

Over my head
Better off dead

2004-11-27T08:14:00.000+08:00

yoohooo. here i am. this is me. haha im mad. anyway its time to blogggggg. hmmm where shall i start. er. ok so the past few days has not been too happening. a lil bit of happiness and a lil bit of sadness. well. lifes like dat.

spent the night at ch hse last night. went over after work. had a bath. then talked to janice on the phone. played dota and cs. and listened to music. his com. 1600 songs. its like wth so many lor. left at 6.45 just now. walked home alone. so lonely =(

reached home at 7 and tried to sleep. or at least i lied on the bed for a while and decided not to. haha. read 'Who Moved My Cheese?' in an hour. its a book which helps u deal with changes in the metaphors of life. borrowed it from ch. nice book. realli thought about alot of things while reading it.

here are some excerpts and quotes from the story.

'... Angela said, "Life sure turned out differently than i thought it would be when we were in school. A lot has changed."... "It certainly has." Nathan echoed. He asked, "But, have you noticed how we dont want to change when things change?"... Carlos said. "I guess we resist changing because we are afraid of change."...'

well the above excerpt realli is true. changes do happen no matter wat. wat matters is how you take it. i realised that i am very afraid. afraid of the things which might happen. perhaps i think too much. or maybe i simply just cant bear to let go.

'The more important your cheese is to you the more you want to hold on to it'

dats so true. at this point of time there is onli one cheese i want to hold on to. lings. i noe the time we have left is getting shorter with every passing day.everyday i think of the future where i dun have u by my side. the more i think of it. the more i want to hold on to it. but i cant. soon i'll have to let go. i'll have to. but i dun think i will. its hard to let go. i guess u are most important to me now. maybe i'll manage to go by without u. but most probably, i wont.

'Movement in a new direction helps you find new cheese.'

yes it will. but will i find cheese that is as good as the old one? will i even find that cheese? but wat to do. life's like dat. no matter how hard u try. u will never find something which is the same as before. is this case. its someone. i may find someone who is better than u. or someone almost as good as u. maybe i wont even find someone. u never noe. perhaps time will tell. but for now. i dun wan to lose this old cheese.

'When you move beyond your fear, you feel free.'

is it true? my biggest fear is to lose you. can i ever move beyond that fear? i dunnoe. soon we will part and go back to our lives. but i noe i will still think of u everytime. we have been thru so much these past months. even more since we knew each other. its just hard to forget. much less move beyond it. if i can choose between u and freedom, i'll rather have u.

'The quicker u let go of old cheese, the sooner u find new cheese.'

hmm. the problem is. i cant let go of the old cheese. even if i find someone new. theres a possibilty that i'll still think of u and miss u. anyway where can i find such good new cheese. dat girl? haha nah she will never be as good as u. hmm its gonna be so so hard to let go.

well thats a few of the many thoughts than went thru my mind while reading the book. lingss i dunnoe how life will be like without u. well i'll just wait and see. everytime i say i will wait and see how it goes as time passes. but at the same time im hoping that time will stop. abit contradicting rite. well once again. dats life. haha. anyway these few days is gonna be one heck of a ride. lets hope i survive this ride.

i L' 4 2?
haha
iL'u too =)

2004-11-22T01:38:00.000+08:00

well its been almost 2 days since the last update. hmmm lets see. after updating went to the airport to sent my aunt off to thailand. then met mummy and her friend for lunch. prata again. lol sians. then took a bus home. slept in it and missed a stop. lol. went off to work after a bathe. work was boring. was at store till midnight. then took the last bus home. bathed got ready. and waited for mon. went to leslie's hse with him. keong peck and jun were there already. planned to watch the barcelona match. watched the first half. kept falling asleep. i missed both goals. lol. abit pointless like dat. so me and peck went to sleep.

slept till 11.45. hmmm. not good. considering the fact that i was supposed to work at 12. haha. slowly walked home. took a bath. then off to work. boooooring~~ worked till ard 8. then went to meet mummy near her house there. boss and chye huat joined us soon after that. felt wierd eating in macdonalds wearing the burger king uniform. LOL. went home after then online lor. till now. chatting. blogging. listening to music. im boredd~~

hmmm. i feel lost. lost without you. lost with you. either way im still lost. after what mummy told and advised me. im starting to have second thoughts. shld i just give up. i dunnoe. im lost lost lost. i feel stupid. i feel dumb. but i just cant give up. i just dont want to. haiz many times i've said i'll leave it to fate. but fate is taking too long to decide. screw fateee.

2004-11-20T08:31:00.000+08:00

blog blog its time to blog. as usual. im damn tireddd. just reached home frm leslies hse. out the whole night.

hmmm. lets startt. woke up at 4.45pm yesterday. then went to meet janicee, mummy and boss at crepes and creme or sth like dat at citylink mall. they were eating something. i think its supposed to be ice cream and pancake. hmm. ate the leftovers left by janice. ok la not bad lor. walked to bugis after dat. to take neoprints. zzz. then had dinner at the food court. omg so chorr lor. waste money. then took bus with janice to asteroids at katong.

met keong, peck, jun, mon, ch, les, benny, saw and his friends there. played DOTA and a little cs. till around 1. then went to play billiards. left the place at around 3. took cab to simpang bedok. shared 1 prata bomb, 1 cheese prata, 1 nasi goreng, 1 mee goreng and 1 roti john with chi han. we can realli eat. also had milo and milo dinosaur. damnnn. $10 for supper/breakfast. crazy.

took cab to leslie's hse after dat. slacked ard played cards. played blackjack got three 7's =D. stayed till ard 8 then walked home alone. nnot much left to say. i feel like an idiot =/

Alicia Keys - If I Ain't Got You

Some people live for the fortune
Some people live just for the fame
Some people live for the power, yeah
Some people live just to play the game
Some people think that the physical things
Define what's within
And I've been there before
But that life's a bore
So full of the superficial

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, Yeah

Some people search for a fountain
That promises forever young
Some people need three dozen roses
And that's the only way to prove you love him
Hand me the world on a silver platter
And what good would it be
With no one to share
With no one who truly cares for me

[Chorus:]
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, you, you
Some people want it all
But I don't want nothing at all
If it ain't you baby
If I ain't got you baby
Some people want diamond rings
Some just want everything
But everything means nothing
If I ain't got you, yeah

[Outro:]
If I ain't got you with me baby
So nothing in this whole wide world don't mean a thing
If I ain't got you with me baby

* it pretty much says it all. everything is nothing if i aint got u :(

2004-11-19T06:15:00.000+08:00

so much for my happy ending =/ this line sums it all up.

well just came home from work awhile ago. again im dead tiredd. had a nice warm bath then came online. today was just like any other day. after my last update. watched white chicks vcd. the picture quality sucked. well u cant expect much frm such vcds. gave up halfway. then rested on my bed. fell asleep. until 1.30.

met janice at pasir ris mrt at 2.30. sent her to work again. then took a bus home. hmmm then 3 guys from tanjong katong sec boarded the bus and sat in front of me. they were talking abt a friend of theirs. or so called friend. fckin backstabbers. why do such people exist. maybe i'm one too. well dats just life. life sucks.

slept when i reached home. till ard 7 when mummy called. talked to her for awhile. then went off to work. work was boring again. it always is. until 1am. then suddenly so happening. time seemed to pass very fast today. maybe its cause i didnt look at the clock often. all was going smoothly. until 4.30am. i made my mummy angry. im sorry im just stupid i dunnoe when to joke and when to be serious. my stupidity caused this. serves me right.

hmmm. im wondering. wat direction am i leading in life. currently im living life with no directions. just take watever comes my way. not thinking of the future. life is so meaningless. at least mine is. will ending it be better. not onli for me but for many others out there. i dunnoe. sometimes i just feel like giving up. but im scared. im scared of death. im just a coward. a stupid dumb coward. well i think i'll just have to wait and see. let fate lead the way. and just follow blindly. im tired. all i wanna do now is just sleep. sleep and forget everything. at the same time hoping i wake up a different person. not a useless dumbass like wat i am now. cya.

2004-11-18T08:27:00.000+08:00

sooooooooooooo tiredddd. just back from leslie's hse a while ago. tiring day yesterdae. woke up at ard 1.30. had a quick lunch then went to meet janice at pasir ris mrt. supposed to meet her at 2.30. but i was still walking to the bus stop at dat time. so was she. haha. sent her to work again. mummy didnt go to work cause she didnt feel well.

after dat went to meet pecky, jun, mon, les and ch at cine. they watched taxi. heard its a nice show. hmm too bad didnt get to watch. then walked to pool junction at 101 plaza if i not wrong. near bugis there. thats 2 stops away. damn farr. played a few games. got raped by mon. haha he is godly. went to eat after dat. i onli drank coke. no money so have to save u noe. hmmm. i dun even have money to save. hahaha. walked to sim lim. looked at computer stuffs. now i can onli dream of a new com. hahaha. sweet dreams man.

took a train back to outram after dat. waited for janicee for abt an hr before she finished. then back to tampines. helped do inventory at the bk tampines mall outlet. the freezer. damn colddd. after dat went to eat mac with boss and janice. great dinner man. haha. then took a cab with janice to esso. she continued to her chalet at tanah merah.

walked with the same bunch of guys + keong to ch hse. got a shock by the 3 dogs next door. hahaha. bark damn loud wake the neighbourhood up. there watched mon play cs. GODLY SIA! dats monster in the house. realli damn pro. then walked to les hse. first they played DOTA. then watched soccer. england vs spain. referee kelong. england played like shit. played cards awhile. then left. les went to sch. the rest went home.

feeling a little tired right now. but dun wanna go to sleep. scared later cant wake up. shld be sending janice to work again. dunnoe whether mummy will be going too. after that i have work myself. im gonna tire myself out then sleep till afternoon on friday man. as for now, guess im gonna go watch vcds. got them frm les hse. quite a few of them. among them white chicks and house of flying daggers. movies which i wanted to watch but didnt have the time too. should keep me occupied for the next 4 hours. then i can head out again. well nth much to say now. hope the next few days are good days. i realli hope so. if not, then.... er... then i dunnoe. just let fate decide? hmmmmm. watever cya ppl.

2004-11-17T02:53:00.000+08:00

hmmm blogger blogger blogger. time to blogggg. let seeeee. time has passed since the last update. lots of time. my life changed. for the worst =\ 9.8k. long story. anyway lets just forget the sadness and update about today.

well. feeling very tireddd now. again lack of sleeeep. onli had 4 hours of 'light' sleep the night before. keep being awoken by sms-es. slept at 5. woke up at 9.30. fauzi yan and buk came over for gym. well. i was too tired to do anything. so just sat in the freaking cold gym and read newspaper while they worked out. then went home to bathe. i think i spoiled the dryer. was drying my black polo shirt halfways when the machine broke down. dunnoe wtf happened. dumbb machine.

went to play pool after dat. me and buk. then janice joined us. then something shitty happened. no use going into it now. just a dumb misunderstanding =) anyway problem's solved now. so its better to forget. then met mummy at long johns. then followed her and janice to their workplace near outram park mrt. then took a train back to airport. late for work. so stopped at eunos, got down and took a cab. $9 omgg. im left with $3 until the end of the month. pathetic me. see lah. play some more lor. now no money then regretttt.

work sucked. couldnt stopped thinking. of the two things i always think abt. wats dat? ask me urself =x anyway taught jeremy counter. cute boy. obedient. he even asked me to sms him wat he was supposed to say. hahaha damn cutee. anyway time passed quite quickly. soon it was 1am. time to go home.

reached home. got on the com. listened to some songs. and then came to bloggg. anyways nth much else to say. shld be sendng mummy to work tml again. nth else to do also.

im missing someone very mucchhhhh. grrrr. love hurts. money kills. hahahaha. keong peck and jun shld get wat i mean.

2004-11-02T00:43:00.000+08:00

hhmmmm. been a long time since a decent update. nothing to do now. so might as well update.

feeling very tired now. serious lack of sleep. was working till 7am this morning. reached home onli at 12+ slept awhile. and then met janicee at tamp mrt. took a train down to bugis met boss they all. then went with them to mos burger. more people joined sooner. farhan and mummy among them. then headed to shaw tower for the special BK sneak preview of A SHARKS TALE. nice movie. very funny one. makes a great love story too. "i am nobody without you." awwwww. /me meltsss.

after that went to eat steamboat. didnt realli eat much. didnt feel like it. then went home. took mrt till eunos. then took the bus with mummy. reached home near midnight. bathe and all dat and went online. not much things to do. listen to songs. and slowly wait. wait till around 1.30. then maybe i will go to sleep.

hmm wat else. nothing much to say these days. life is changing. well wat do u expect. u cant live the same kind of life for the whole of ur living years. changes happen. some for the better. some for the worse. as for me. i dunnoe. i'll just wait and see.

2004-10-26T02:28:00.000+08:00

its fated wahahahahaha =P

My Happy Ending - Avril Lavigne

Let's talk this over
It's not like we're dead
Was it something I did?
Was it something you said?

Don't leave me hangin'
In a city so dead
Held up so high
On such a breakable thread

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS
You were everything, everything that I wanted
We were meant to be, supposed to be, but we lost it
And all of our memories, so close to me, just fade away
All this time you were pretending
So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

You've got your dumb friends
I know what they say
They tell you I'm difficult
But so are they
But they don't know me
Do they even know you?
All the things you hide from me
All the shit that you do

You were all the things I thought I knew
And I thought we could be

CHORUS

It's nice to know that you were there
Thanks for acting like you cared
And making me feel like I was the only one
It's nice to know we had it all
Thanks for watching as I fall
And letting me know we were done

CHORUS X 2

So much for my happy ending
So much for my happy ending

2004-10-19T03:40:00.000+08:00

who's right or wrong, it just doesnt matter. what if tml nv comes? den live each day like there's no tml. treasure every moment spent. sometimes, just because you've stopped moving on in your own world, it doesnt mean that the ppl arnd u have stopped their footsteps too. life goes on for them. it may make a diff to you, however, otherwise to them. i'm tired..sigh.. nevertheless, i blv there'll always be a better day tml. gd night.

2004-10-19T02:11:00.000+08:00

sigh... noe wad? today wasn't a better day. i jus dunno wad to say. mayb i said TOO much. somethings are perhaps better left unsaid. guys and gers' thinking are really diff. guys just wan to forget abt it. but gers just wanna explain. well, time to =| *sheesh* =\ still, hope tmr will be a better day. :)

firehouse - i live my life for you.

You know you're everything to me
And I could never see, the two of us apart
And you know I give myself to you
And no matter what you do, I promise you my heart

1-I've built my world around you and I want you to know
I need you, like I've never needed anyone before

2-I live my life for you
I want to be by your side in everything that you do
And if there's only one thing you can believe is true
I live my life for you

I dedicated my life to you
You know that I would die for you
But our love would last forever
And I will always be with you
And there is nothing we can't do
As long as we're together

I just can't live without you, and I want you to know
I need you like I've never needed anyone before
(repeat 2, 1)

Wow, yeah I live my life for you

2004-10-18T14:01:00.000+08:00

sigh... all this on and off thing is making me tired... am i really too sensitive? time for me to change? but when it comes to a time where ppl are teasing abt it too many times, it just makes me awkward. ok enuf abt it. the past is over, today will be a better day, or so i hope. :)

well worked wif e manager ystd. perhaps we cant always judge ppl on first look, hmm, still dun really noe her, but she's still "alrite" lor. hahas, she's got a gf waiting for her all the time. well, *sheesh* m looking "fwd" to MY joseph. :P

results r releasing soon, guess im gonna take sub paper. *sigh* anyway, there r so many loose ends for me to clear up. i'm tired. everyday i wake up, i think of the thousand of things i haven done. 24 hrs just isnt enuf for me. well, off to work soon. =

2004-10-17T13:27:00.000+08:00

hi peeps~ on fri, early morn acc jan to sentosa to meet her friends. den got nth to do after tt, and walked abt i supposed. after that went to jun hse play mahjong again. yw came and left. denmet jan again and went to bk. hahas. saw e new manager and of course all time favourite joseph :D he's got sexy butt that mesmerised jan. and jan's gonna change her name for him to josephine, joseabelle, and wad not. in case u're wondering, joseph is the tsm in his forties :)

den, on sat, acc jan to return her www uniform. den went to work. was quite saddening. *winnieeeeeeeeeeee, i'm sorry k? pls dun be angwee. wasnt on purpose, but it just dun feel gd working when u haf things on ur mind. but gladly, we were ok again. well, suppose our friendship stands strong huh? or rather winnie is forgiving towards e every pestering jan. hurhur >:) well, slpt only at 6+ to 7. still tired.

nth much to blog abt, gonna go work soon ciaos ppl

2004-10-15T02:52:00.000+08:00

*boO* wahahhaahhaa. wad a day. recalling on happenings:

//TOP 4 GONG GONG actions+incidents//
1 - hiding in winnie's cupboard
2 - goin to dte bk and showing a dining crew "bk shirt and saying im oso workin bk can i have coupon?
3 - new day at www, i.e. retail & photo kiosk & thumbprint & small size shirt+kaki+slippers
4 - goin to kitchen+wearing gloves+pickin up some papers and wrapping burgers again for e past few donkey months

haha, wrapping up overall, awaiting tml's trip to sentosa. hope mum allows. so sians. mayb shld work tml after sentosa huh. well, gotta go on DIET. it's time. lols. got lotsa things on my mind - undone yet!! wld lk to go back kitchen and learn wrapping burger more. hope to learn things faster at www,save more money, buy more things, be slimmer etc etc. lols.

an unrelevant section: do you like watching the sunset or sunrise? me? preferably the sunset, that's when e cool night comes, the stars appear and u can enjoy the serenity. well, sunrise represents a new beginning, a refreshing start, but also an end to the previous wonderful happenings. hahas, well just a thought and typing it down. :D

maybe i have to learn to adapt to new stuffs, environment, and also treasure and appreciate the ppl around me more. isnt life wonderful to have great friends by your side, whtr thru laughter or sadness, u noe they care and really do try to include u and not let u feel left out. it's simply priceless to have all these.

siansssssssss i just wanna have fun!!!! i dun wan to miss anything out!!! *yawns* am tired ord, gotta zzzz soon. nitesssssssss

*~*~*~*starlight*star bright*the first star i see tonight*i wish i may*i wish i might*~*~*~*

2004-10-14T04:40:00.000+08:00

*And everytime i see you in my dream/i see your face/you're haunting me/i guess i need you baby*

*And i just want you to know/i've found the reason for me/to change who i used to be/the reason to start over new/and the reason is you*

*tell me you love me/come back and hold me*

*nobody said it was easy/oh it's such a shame for us to part/nobody said it was easy/no one ever said it would be so hard/oh let's go back to the start*

*look at the stars/look how they shine for you*

*we'll make it through and i hope you're the one i'll share my life with/i don't wanna run away but i can't take it/i don't understand/if i'm not made for you then why does my heart tell me that i am*

*just a little bit more love/just a little bit more passion*

*And even if the sun refuse to shine/even if romance ran out of rhyme/you would still have my heart until the end of time/you're all i need/my love/my valentine*

*X JAPAN - forever love/forever dream - endless rain/fall on my heart*

*it's a damn cold night/trying to figure out this life/won't you take my by the hand/take me somewhere new/i don't know who you are/but i/i'm with you*

*all i wanna do/is grow old with you*

Ps: Winnie said "URS TRULY" - 1 yr 1mth 1 wk.
: Love = Make believe.

im bored!! cant slp.. tml's a new day cheerios!

2004-10-14T03:25:00.000+08:00

hurhurhurhurhur~! lazy winnie lazy to update!! so "i" m here! haha. well, play mahhhjong wif weekiang, peck and jun at jun's hse! til 5+ den meet jan! gosh! den in e end late for work! work's boring, esp so when jan cant go take stock wif me! hahas. :P well, tired now i supposed, but not slping yet, hmm haf no idea wad song im listening to. at work, sang "onlyyyyyyyyyyy youuuuuuuuuuuuu" and crapped about having other gers! when i can only haf one!! :X

well, sometimes in life do u ever feel lost with no sense of direction? and all the while you've been living pretty much for others, listening to wad they say, doing what they ask you to do, and not as much for urself? life's boring,and nothing but a torture sometimes. you go home, all u'll ever wan is just to lock urself up, just so u can shut urself out from all the noises goin on that makes u feel as if u're BUrStiNg. but then again, isnt home e place to relax urself? well, i suppose every home has got its problem that sometimes a home becomes just a house. you go home, and go out, go home and go out. that's it. den again toking about r/s, is love everything? is it everyting u'll just haf in e world? yes, everything revolves around love/ r/s, but c'mon, life's much more than just that. so much more out there to be appreciated. how abt ur family, friends? hmm my friend just told me today that a guy and ger can NV be platonic friends, either one or the other will haf a little feeling for each other. hmm to me i aint so sure about that.well, sounds contradicting.

i guess as a person grows up, free time gets lesser, more things to fret about, and life is so susceptible to changes. that's such a sad thing. it's true - nothing is forever. about friends, well make new friends, but dun forget the old, cos some people just step by in ur life, made that impact, and prob, it's time to catch up with them. ahha, thinking back, how time Fliessss, it's been prob 1-2 yrs, i noe well, - winnie. we sure did haf our fair share of ups and downs. but it's been wonderful knowing winnie. well, "c'est la vie - that's life" :) just blog from my heart. dun really noe wad im saying, but just wanna express it out. about happy things, well some people are just dear to me and i hold them close to my heart. to them* i wun forget u. well winnie u're one of them. yes u r! u're not the only one, but u r ONE. ok? hmmm, shall update again! cheerios ^o^ lalalalalalalalala~ to winnie: *vRooOms* my "moto" huh!! my hse downstairs!! :P hahas. hmmm and, although my blog may b kinda depressing(which i hope isnt really THAT depressing") on the whole, im still a pretty cheery person!! hees :P

Ps: im happy now!! hahas, cos i got $60 :P *jUmps*

2004-09-12T01:14:00.000+08:00

yooohhhooo~~ just got off the phone with mummy. nice chat we had. didnt update yesterday. so this might be quite long. hmm lets get it started.

yesterday after school went meet money took money from her. then went seoul garden eat. not bad la. got full laughing instead of eating. so stopped eating and went for the ice cream. 4 bowls? sth like dat. and i mean 4 big bowls. then after that. went to the toilet. i threw out all the ice cream. lol. all the chocolate chip came out. haha. then after that went pllay billiards. i won yay. lol. then went home. bathe all dat. then went eastpoint with keong. bought some stuff. then over to juns house. mahjong overnight. tiring lor. played till 8 this morning. then took a cab home. reached home then straight away KO on the bed.

woke up at 7 just now. had dinner. watched the next big thing finals. grizelda lee is realli beautiful. too bad she lost. then after that came online crapped abit. then on the fone with mummy at 10.30. chatted til now. lots of things to talk about hor. she is crazy :P

one day gone. i havent do inetcf project. not forgetting tcs. damnnn. deadlines coming. no plans yet for tml. maybe going out with mummy. or go to my aunts house. or maybe just stay home. slack. nothing much to update on today. this year sept 11 has been a quiet one. compared to the past few years ones. guess i shall go sleep now. so tired. keep yawning. dats wat mummy said. haha. ciaoss.

2004-09-10T01:50:00.001+08:00

hi peeps. i am so totally in love with MAIA LEE. lol. well lets get todays entry started.

hmm school was normal. I ACTUALLY PAID ATTENTION IN CKT. haha. cant help it exams coming have to buck up. hmm lessons till 5 yawns. then went home. watched tv. and went to the gym. then back to tv.

SG IDOL! MAIA ROX. lol too bad she didnt make it. nvm she will be back for wildcard. she will make it then. i think singapore purposely one. so that we can see maia one extra time. but then. they shld have put nana in. not leandra. now nana has to fight with maia. damn. can sg idol producers please accept both of them. pleaseeeeeee. hmmm nvm ll prefer maia over nana. GO MAIA!!

hmm tml i think going seoul garden eat. but haf to get my atm card frm mummy first. dunnoe wats up with her. very moody these days. then dun wanna tell me why. makes me worried. guess i'll talk to her. dats if she will tell me her problems. hmm nth to do liao. mums nagging. time to sleeep. update again tml. ciaos.

MAIA LEE ROX!

2004-09-08T23:32:00.000+08:00

yoohooo im backkk. lol. im trying to update frequently here ok. hmmmmmm. todaywent by perfectly well. school was boring. 2 subjects onli. but still boring.

went central with sher, keong and lynn after school. actually going buy slipper with keong. but heard from from sher lynn wants to buy sandals. so all 4 went together. in the end. both of them didnt buy. lol. walk walk tm then challenger. then went home.

reached home straight away slept. slept for 2 hours. then watched tv all the way again. supposed to be biceps and triceps day. but postponed it to tml too tired liao. i must jia you. all for linda :)

now crapping with darwin in irc. liar? hmmm. he is mad. nothing to do. hmm im biting on a star someone folded a long time ago. using straws those kind. hmmm so bored. where is all the entertainment.

sch tml at 12. very very lazy. but have to work hard now. exams coming soon. sian my dad making noise again. better go sleep liao. cyaaa all update again tml.

2004-09-08T01:46:00.000+08:00

hellllllo peeeeps. been getting lots of comments that the content section of my blog is very empty. lol. so here i am to update. actually i dunnoe wat to write. just dat i have nothing to do at the moment and someone wants me to blog. so here goes.

hmmmmmm. today. yesterday i mean. err. typical day in school. lesson started at 8. inetcf. shit lah the tutor. my lab sheet lost also wan deduct class participation marks. simi lj. its not as if i was the onli one who didn't bring. blind asss. open ur eyes bigger next time please.

went hme after ckt lab to get my certs for apel portfolio. turned out. made a wasted trip home. cause didnt have to hand in the portfolio today. zzzz. apel lesson was fun. just ask eugene. lol.

went home after school. just lay on the sofa watch tv. untraceable evidence 2. nice show. although like got watch before. then went gym. im working hard for linda :P after that went home watched chinese drama serials. until 10 came online do tcs project. whole of chapter 3. so much. zzzzzz. after dat chatted with haiye on the phone. mad girl.

now online chat on msn lor. feeling cold. aircon blowing hard. brrr. hmm i realli dont know wat to write. hmmm ahhh. just now. while looking through my old certs. remembered the past. es4e soccer camp. pri 2. my team was denmark. i cried asking for my mummy on the first day. damn malu. hmm i realli have grown up. i was so young then. so cute ahaha. hmmmm wonder how it will be like in 10 years. will i have a pretty wife? will it be linda? hhaha. janice says no =/ demoralising. nvm i shall show her. aiyah nth else to say anymore. shall go sleeep now. its 1.11 omgg. tml have to wake up at 8.15. cannot make it la. go liaos. cyaa i will be back for more. tml. or whenever.

2004-08-20T15:31:00.000+08:00

woohoo i finished my blog. hahaha. 2 hours nia. hmm im getting more pro at this. i think inetcf is helping me alot. but then..... still no music. DAMN!!!! sherry help me~!!!

2004-08-20T14:04:00.000+08:00

first week back to school is over. well i wan a new template for my blog. so gonna revamp it. will update after new template out. later following mummy to job interview. hope she gets the job. ciaos peeps.

2004-08-05T01:30:00.000+08:00

yooohoooo. long time nv blog le. busy lah. term test period now. haha got inetcf test at 9 tml. and its 1.30 now. omg. studied abit nia. but realli nth uch to study. im lazy to update any more. lol. so leave u all with lyrics of a song. take care ciaosss.

Obviously - McFly

Recently I've been,
Hopelessly reaching
Out for this girl,
Who's out of this world.
Believe me.

She's got a boyfriend
He drives me round the bend
Cos he's 23
He's in the marines
He'd kill me

But so many nights now
I find myself thinking about her now.

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league
But how can I win
She keeps draggin' me in and
I know I never will be good enough for her.

No, no
Never will be good enough for her.

Gotta escape now
Get on a plane now. yeah
Off to L.A and that's where I'll stay, for two years.

I'll put it behind me(i'll put it behind me)
Go to a place where she cant find me. yeah.

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my league,
I'm wastin' my time
'Cause she'll never be mine
I know i never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her

She's outta my hands
And I never know where I stand
Cos I'm not good enough for her
He's good enough for her (for her, for her)

'Cause obviously,
She's out of my leeague,
I'm wastin' my time
'Cause she'll never be mine
I know i never will be good enough for her.
No, no
Never will be good enough for her.

* Happy Bdae Lynn MUACKS haha *

2004-07-25T02:41:00.000+08:00

wahhhh a very tiring day today. early morning got bowling trials. cmi cmi. pathetic la. aiyo dun say liao. my right hand muscle damn pain now. played pool too at leisure bowl. off form. i think its the cue =x

met zhiming saidah and apphia in the afternoon at sengkang. walk walk abit. talk cock alot. haha. after dat follow zhiming play bball. ppl hua tien leh mai siao siao. lol. play till 9+ then go his house. then after dat he go work. i took bus wif him go airport. saw mummy. didnt noe she worked till 10. went home after dat. then online lor. mym mum bought kfc home. nice. but damn. im trying to diet. cut down on eating. and i ate 3pc meal. farked. now chatting on irc. sibei sian ah. i think i gonna sleep soon liao. tml meeting zhiming derek apphia and saidah again. going play pool. then i think go airport study. at the same time wait for mummy. wahhhhh bth liao. go sleep liao. cyaaaa.

2004-07-24T02:23:00.000+08:00

ROAR! gonna sleep soon. thought i would squeeze in a short entry before i do so. had dfund test in sch just now. cmi. totally cmi. i think at most. 8/20. shit lah. quiz liao like dat. nx time term test how sia.

went home and slept. wah damn song. tired ah. my back still hurt just now. not anymore now. slept till around 7 woke up cause aircon too cold liao. then online till 9 then went to meet hq and ls. saw meldon in the bus. PRO KIA! haha. go kpool at pav. waiting list. so ls had to go home. then me and hq. kiat came soon after. many ppl there. weiluo meldon yusho all dat. played till abt 11.30? then went home. i payed 1 dollar for the pool onli. but then $16 for the cab fare. lol first dropped me off then kiat at ps then hq at novena. reach home online till now ah.

crapped wif hq and meldon in dunmanites main. damn cock. yes meldon sark =x hq came online dat time damn dulan cause of her mother. hahaha. then now ok le.

hmm tml got bowling trials. i dunnoe leh. not dat confident. cause my bowling skills abit sucky la. also seldom play. but then i realli wanna make the team. well. tml just go there and haf fun bah. maybe going pav after dat wif meldon to train up our pool. lol. i wanna be a pro haha. guess dats all for today. go sleep liao good nites.

2004-07-23T03:03:00.000+08:00

yo~ havent updated in a few daes. abit lazy. didnt feel good too yesterday. had an acute pain in my back. couldnt bend forward. pathetic. i couldnt even roll in bed. and when i told my mum. she scolded me. said that when i play computer i dun complain of back pains. my own mother. no one cares. farked. so went to sleep at 9 yesterday. woke up for school so damn refreshed. back felt better but still hurt. damn it still hurts as i'm typing.

anyway school just now ok lah. not bad cause quite short. dunnoe whether to skip ckt lecture to study for ckt quiz or not. in the end went for it. 15 mins late liao. ckt quiz difficult ah. i think cfm 100% fail liao. see lah nv study. after sch went bk at tm to eat. me asyraf and omar again. as usual laugh like siao. talked abt the crew there. haha damn funny. got one girl called has___yah. couldnt see the middle part of her name cause her nametag abit faded. well she had the looks. omar called her dumbfuck. good for fucking onli lolx. saw my distant relative at bk too. asyraf told me that she recognise me. cause i didnt sit facing her. well we can always see each other again. next chinese new year -.- went home after dat. played the com. after dat my sis used. felt bored. so listened to mummy's advice and watched tv. tv actually has nice shows. and to think i told mummy i hated the tv. lol. then online till now.

tml got dfund test. 50% confident. read thru abit just now. but i think its gonna be of little use tml. dunnoe la. maybe read a little more later =x or maybe skip lecture tml and study instead. haha see how bah.

days seem to past very fast these few daes. monday seemed like just yesterday. havent seen many people in a while. yisiew, janice, sherry, not forgetting LINDA. haha realli very long nv see liao. hmm its 3.20 now. quite late. nth else to blog. guess i end here. not going sleep yet. not tired lol. see ya~

2004-07-19T01:52:00.000+08:00

hais. school tml. 7 hours more. im tired. and still not sleeping. haha. well today slept into the afternoon. actually till 1.30 like dat nia. keong called then ask me go online. zzzzzzzzz. bathe all dat then sat infront of the com. whole day? dunnoe leh lol.

pia my aol acct with kiat. woah very fast nice nice. aiyah anyway not much happened today. crapped in irc as usual. reborn hq all dat. haha. damn boring day nothing much to update about. so guess dats all. cya peeps.

__ who the hell has control of dat damn smoke machine // __

2004-07-18T05:54:00.000+08:00

its 6 am and im still awake =D lolx woke up reluctantly at 1.30pm today thanks to hq's call. and had like 4 missed calls and 2 sms. so she must have been realli trying hard. heard from her i sms-ed her and called her mummy. i cant recall it. i think i sms-ed the wrong person LOL. bathed,had lunch then went to meet her, ls and kiat for pool. very fun although injured my finger. blood flowed non stop for 20 mins or so. after pool decided to watch movie. BROTHERHOOD! caught the 6pm movie. paid for 2 person. damn =x ate mac while waiting for the movie.

anyway it was a nice show. highly recommended. 60+ year old won bin is cute according to ls. and hq says that the guy is tyco in the movie. haha. anyway in the cinema just now got one fucked up woman. dunnoe wats wrong with her. we were talking among ourselves. like whispering. didnt make dat much noise. then she suddenly went "shhhh" then glared at us. dunnoe hq they all heard or not. well i heard it. and i just glared back. we want whisper u huan lo. u shhh kilan. ur cinema ah? not happy ask cinema refund u la. we spoilt ur movie izzit?. its not as if we talked damn loud. i think no one except u heard lor. got baby in front make noise why u nv shhhh. nx time mind ur own business la dun come shh here shh there wan shhh go toilet. just simply FO frm the cinema. dat will be the best idea.

went home after the movie. spent alot today. nvm lah once in a while go out with them. so fun. crapped alot. about hanged computers and stuff =X

went to check out my spoilt hp. doesnt wanna on. the shop said that water went in. i mean like wtf when did it come into contact with water. then he showed me water marks. well ok but i got no idea when the water went in. would cost 50 bucks to repair. damn i dun wan waste dat money but haf to my contact list stored in the phone not SIM card so its gonna be hard without the phone.

at home on the computer as usual. crapped abit in irc then trained fl till now. its 6am now and im so tired. guess i gonna go sleep now. TIRED!!!!!!

guess i got myself another mummy?? please clarify LOL!

__ so in love with you // __

2004-07-17T02:03:00.000+08:00

WEEEEEEEE~~ 2 am on this boring saturday morning. haha. today was very normal. went to school by cab. guess wat. the cab driver. well he wasnt mad. but he kept singing songs aloud. and he kept changing his voice. i dunnoe whether to laugh or wat sia. i just pretend i slept and closed my eyes. actually LOL-ing in my thoughts. wierdd.

had engin maths test today. well quite easy. damn tired the whole day consigering i onli slept 2 hours the night before. reached home at around 3 then got ready all dat. off to airport. shamad and zul off to bali. they are so fortunate. they cna go there and enjoy. better still, thier parents allow them to skip sch to do it. dats like SHIOK lor. mummy was there. so was ram. went home at around 8 and played my beloved computer. till now still on it. well my computer has been running for like 3 days. restarted it 4-5 times but it hasnt been of for 5 mins in 3 days.

well finally bought my bermudas. got them at metro. 10 bucks. so cheap. thinking of buying another one but its the same colour so nah. maybe buying another one from 77th street but kinda chorr 36 bucks dun wanna waste dat kind of money. well see how bah.

2.15 liao. yawning for the past few hours. realli damn tired i think i gonna go sleep now. tml maybe going out with hq they all not cfm yet. or maybe go airport look for mummy. not sure la. tml then say now all i wanna do is think of u. good night.

__ sleep \\ thinking of you __

2004-07-16T05:07:00.000+08:00

ROAR! 5 am now. just finished studying for engin maths test tml. SEE I GUAI NOT! actually only flipped through and looked at the examples =/ well still better than nothing rite. with the useful maths table i think i can do well lah. hopefully lor. dun wan go maths clinic damn waste time.

today school very fun crapped whole day. after school went BK @ TM eat with omar and asyraf. LOL-ed alot. damn fun. well my new classmates quite good after all rite. omar keep jiaowei with his fake americanized english. reminds me of whoopi goldberg wahaha. after dat went to BK-T1. saw farhan ashiq hong yi and all the aunties. miss miss miss dat place. then went off with mummy and my grandma. went to tamp central. played cs alone then keong came played till 9.30. went to look for my bermudas after dat. couldnt find it at giordanos and baleno. 77th street close it was almost 10 wat u expect. so couldnt find my bermudas =/ reached home slacked around abit. bathe eat then on comp till now. damn bored. fl abit. read forums. soccer news. blog-hopped. and all dat. and then went to STUDY. lol.

sch tml at 9. have to wake up at 7.30. dats like onli 2 hours away =| cfm not enuff sleep one. then test GG? hope can tong till noon tml. planned to go bugis look for my bermudas but guess not. me and keong too tired. so going to 77th street tml after school then home. then i dunnoe wat to do. cant sleep cause if i do so i wouldnt be able to wake up to send shamad off at 5+ in the evening. he going to bali damn shiok. think they going there to surf. sounds nice to me. of course the bonus is the babes. i havent changed =X still the same old me. babes babes babes. wahaha. so any plans for tml? please ask me along. i'll die of boredom at home.

tml will be another long day. one full of yawns. actually thinking back, since i started working at BK i haven't had ample sleep. used to be work work work. then online. now its school school school and even longer online time. at least last time i could sleep late into the afternoon. still could get some sleep. nowadays even 5 hours is difficult to get. the best part is i still haven't fell sick. is dat good or bad? seriously i think i should cut down on gaming and stuff. well i think im going to. exams nearing. have to think of future. well after the exams chinablack here i come. lol. promised zhiming. had to he kept asking i didnt want to be a bad friend. anyway chinablack doesnt seem dat bad. wats more, there will be lots of BABES! maybe i'll like it then go more often. well. we'll see. in about 3 weeks.

5 mins to 5.30 now. guess i'll go get 2 hours of much needed sleep. good luck to myself for the test tml. niteee all.

__// * im in love

2004-07-15T00:00:00.000+08:00

yooohooo~~ its exactly midnight now. weeeeeeee~! hmm nothing much to update today. scholl as usual. then played bball with kiat keong deborah and some other guys. then pavillion for wc3. then home. FL~! lolx.

hmm. i think im in love. i'm smitten by dat pic. by dat face of hers. damn. im in love. omg =/ ciaos.

2004-07-14T03:12:00.000+08:00

im so so so awake. woke up not long ago. and its still 3 am. damn how am i gonna get thru it. well yesterday typical day in school. learned html in inetcf class. hmm interesting. other subjects were ok lah. no complaints. after school took cab home. dropped keong of then went home. then online fl abit. then went to rest on my bed. dat was around 6.30. planned to go study at airport around 7.30 like dat. or so i thought. i just KO on the bed. means i miss dinner. miss the 9pm show. hq's blog says its the last ep. is it? damned. and also, i didnt go and study. didnt get to see mummy. damnnn. all cause i acted like superman and didnt sleep yesterday.

woke up at 2 just now. yaacob online. chatted abit then i got my er dinner? ate the leftover from ytd night. not bad lah. cause a stomachache _|_ woke up got a few sms. keong say his mum kp because of betting slips in his bag. how suay could he get. mummy say she bad mood. and i still dunnoe why cause its too late to find out. anyway now damn awake sure cant sleep. later maybe can. fl char working now. so since i haf the time why not blog. listening to songs. sian ah no new songs.

keong saw linda just now. say she not chio _|_ she better than tricia lor. haha. he and his tricia. bored bored bored. nth else to write. guess end my entry today with lyrics to a damn cute song.

* Never Be Replaced - 1st Ladi *

[Chorus]
Baby I love you and i'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced
Baby I love you and I'll never let you go
But if I have to boy I think that you should know
All the love we make can never be erase
And i promise you that you will never be replaced

I love you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me too
Until the end of time
From the day I met you
I know we've be together
And now I know I wanna be with you forever
I wanna marry you and i wanna have your kids
Thinking never compare to feel enough to kisses
I can say i'm truly happy to the same
You've made me think I'll die and live my life hesitate
There's never been no doubt in my mind
That i'll regret ever having you by my side
But if the day come that i'll have to let you go
I think that something I should probadly let you know
With everything that i spent with you
Then i will miss you cuz i'm happy that i have you at all

[Repeat Chorus]

I feel for you yes i do
I'll be with you as long as you want me to
Until the end of time

2004-07-13T03:04:00.000+08:00

ITS 3AM ON A TUESDAY MORNING, and i start school at 8 tml. damn cfm not enuff sleep. i dunnoe why. i'm not gaming. i'm not watching tv. i'm not eating. basically i'm not doing anything. i just dun wanna sleep. schools gonna be boring later on.

anyway nothing much happened today. same old boring weekday. started playing new character in fl today. not bad lah level 8 liao. but now damn lazy to train haha. need get keong help me. easier. less time wasted. gonna stop fl in a few days. concentrate on studies. term test coming. 3 weeks more. i think if i start pia now. can make it lor. then maybe term break i can go work. get some cash woohoo.

just now watched the 9pm show. damn sad and touching feel like crying man. the kids. damn poor thing. the part where the mother died. i just ran to my room lie on the bed cover my head with the pillow. i didnt wanna hear anything. damn i hate deaths. better not talk abt such things.

tml gonna go study. i think. maybe go airport. then i can see mummy also. 1 week plus nv see her miss her haha. studying emaths i think. test on friday. wats eigenvalues? i thought i ran away from maths after sec sch. guess not =/

so tml will be a damn long day. school till 5 then study till night. no 9pm show. no fl. maybe some fl after study :) see how bah. i think maybe i go fl abit now lol. no sleep for today. BB~!~!~!

2004-07-11T04:47:00.000+08:00

damn lah ok i'll update my blog. a blog without any updates look damn useless. lolx. hmm so where shall i start. not much happen these days bah. keep fl and fl. like never study one. cant blame la teacher dun give us homework. so i dont do. and when i dun do homework i dun study. at least when i do homework something goes into my mind. anyway now chiong fl 100% haha. now my fl character working. so i got nothing to do. surf net finish. nothing else. i dun surf porn sorry. so i come update lor. at the same time listen to songs. hq send de. past few days rcv alot of songs. all in my playlist lor. listen till sian liao need more songs.

school these days. still boring. but not as before. mixing more with classmates now. actually i dun understand. after 6 months. we finally get to understand each other. the school change our classes. and we meet new people. sounds stupid to me. anyway no complains about my classmates. but many about my teachers. a few in particular. im damn suay that 3 of my teachers are indians. and damn they speak with an accent. so irritating to hear them talk. one of them always goes "do u understand me?". and like one lesson he repeats them dunnoe how many countless times. damn i feel like slapping his face. come to think of it. his expression looks a little like mr bean. screw him. hope i dun see him next sem. still hang around keong xiu kiat they all. in fact when im in school when im not with my classmates im with either one of them. unless im alone =/

play pool quite often these days. so fun and relaxing. takes away stress haha. not pro but hu cares. how i shoot or watever, u huan lo =X if tp got pool as cca i sure try try. haha. anyway signed up for bowling. actually i havent. last day supposed to be ytd at 5pm. but i went at 3pm the place was closed =| so guess i'll just wait till monday. then see how. no cca also nvm. i cant join netball. cheerleading is too sissy. then i dun join lor LOL.

hmm my mum recently damn noisy. abit here kp abit there kp. like got sth against me. heck care. i do wat i like :P she still doesnt want me to work =/ anyway went down to bk just now. damn i miss dat place. i miss the people. not all =X i wanna go back. but i cant. guess i'll just wait till term break. even then i dunnoe whether i'll be able to work not. damn lah. no work = no money = no new computer = lesser fun = more boredom. well i think it stopped there.

nth else to say bah. wat else is so interesting. oh yah copa america going on and i cant gamble =/ not saying dat im not happy abt it or wat. actually im happier. more money to spend. i think. hmm. no i dunnoe who will win. but i hope its brazil. dunnoe why but i support them at every tournament they play. haha.

wah why this entry so long one. ok i stop here bah. back to fl. see ya aroung. tag me =D

2004-06-22T00:15:00.000+08:00

ok.. so.. finally.. i am updating my blog.. will try to make it a dauly thing to do.. haha.. first day of school today.. fuck sia so boring i wished i had joined business or hospitality instead.. more girls.. like linda, janice's and sherry's fren.. haha she fucking chio lor.. some more.. some more.. aiya i shouldnt say anymore..

first half of school today got lab and tutorial.. the lab teacher.. engineering drawing one.. spoke with indian accent.. i dunnoe whether to laugh or wat sia.. didnt concentrate on the lesson.. sms-ed instead.. but the exercises were easy.. all sec sch dnt work.. so still can cope.. then lunch.. wow.. actually.. engin sch got some pretty gals after all.. but either they are not from mechatronics.. or they are year 2 or 3 students.. where can like dat!! after lunch had 2 lectures and a tutorials.. lectures damn boring i think i didnt learn anything frm them.. actually.. i didnt learn anything at all in school today.. all we did was sec sch work.. so more or less can say went school for nth..

after school went town.. met hq darwin wen bazhang and reborn.. and then mouse came.. finally saw them in person after crapping so much in irc.. but then, /me shy.. nv talk.. darwin keep asking me talk to them and kept asking reborn and bazhang to talk to me.. he damn funny lor.. wen talked to me asked me about school all dat.. she very nice.. not like hq nv treat me marche.. haha.. oops hq pls dun angry.. im just kiddddddingggggggggg.. bth darwin keep suan hq.. poor thing see her but in the end i also joined darwin.. LOL.. now i regret.. sorry again hq.. haha.. after eat went play pool.. walked damn far then finally reached.. play till 9.40 like dat then went off.. tried to get a cab.. but then i forgot.. orchard road where got so easy get one.. so i took bus.. took to mounbatten.. dropped there cause thought there can get cab.. wtf no cabs lor.. finally got a cab at 10.40.. already late liao.. heng my parents werent home..

im starting to despise my parents.. they tell me not to work.. but yet they dont give me money for school.. yes i got savings.. but then $300 can last how long?? want me die next month ah?? then i dulan them sure everything also not happy la.. they nag nag nag like siao.. bth sia.. sometimes i dont feel like going home.. they dont care abt me at all.. they didnt even noe i started school on the 21st until i told them the night before.. sian sia think of this kind of things.. faredup one.. arghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.. update again tml.. ciaooooz.

2004-05-26T15:41:00.000+08:00

hey yooo bloggy.. just returned home frm a meeting with my 'mummy' and 'grandma'.. supposed to have talked things out.. but i guess nothing had to be talked out.. haha.. now things are just as fine as before..

didnt sleep last night.. guess it was because i woke up at 8pm and had slept for 14 hours.. guess so.. didnt wanna sleep.. so played CM till this morning.. then tried to go to sleep.. but couldnt.. dunnoe wat was running through my mind.. watever it was, i think it realli sucked..

then continued gaming.. until mummy sms-ed.. bathe all dat left the house at 11.. went to meet mummy and grandma.. at first donnoe wat would happen when i saw grandma.. but it turned out just fine.. didnt have to worry much.. watched them eat.. didnt feel like eating at that point of time..

went shopping after that.. OP, perlinis silver, bossini, fila and lastly samuel and kelvin.. actually i just watched them shop.. haha.. then went to eat at long johns.. until disaster(i think) struck.. i had a stomachache and went to the toilet.. when i came back.. someone was there as well.. well i suddenly became speechless.. i didnt talk at all.. except for answering my mummy and grandma's questions..

why is she treating me like dat?? i dont understand.. is it because i havent seen a doctor yet?? or is it because of that dumb friend of hers?? or is it just my attitude AGAIN?? im getting sick of hearing that i have an attitude problem all dat shit.. seriously i hate it when she treats me like dis.. then later she will say its me who treats her like dis first.. and then its tit for tat.. u think i like it when we dont talk.. seriously i hate it.. i keep thinking why she choose to treat me like dat.. where have i gone wrong.. and all those.. and i still cannot find an answer.. put it simply.. i just dont understand..

well i shall not think about this for now.. i shall just concentrate on enjoying myself during the chalet.. yeapss im going to a chalet.. haha.. so wont be around for 2-3 days.. gonna cycle there.. leaveing soon.. but the sky.. its so freaking darkk.. gonna rain soon i think.. cb la like dat sian liao lor.. nvm lets just pray i get there without getting wet.. im already half sleeping lor.. so rain wouldnt help.. oops i think i spoke too soon.. cause it has just started drizzling.. damn the rain suck..

ahh wth im still gonna go cycle.. rain or shine im gonna enjoy this chalet.. and leeave work and friendships behind for this short period of time.. cya bloggy!!

2004-05-25T05:14:00.000+08:00

aiyah sian ah.. just reach home from work.. fucked up _|_ .. no mood and a little lazy to update sia.. grr.. blog without updates.. dats my blog..

2004-05-20T06:11:00.000+08:00

hmmmm testt.

2004-05-20T06:10:00.000+08:00

huiqi see wad i did in one hour.. wahahahha..

2004-05-20T06:09:00.000+08:00

test test test